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I seriously don’t know what’s wrong with me, all I want is someone who lets me stick my dick inside of them. I’m becoming more and more driven to go out at night and rape unsuspecting victims. The thrill of getting away with aggravated sexual assault is resounding in my head. I really don’t care who it is, so long as I can get away with it. What would be better is actually having a girl who enjoys fucking in bed and all over the place consensually. I don’t know what it is that I have done to deserve this inceldom but it is quickly evolving into a deep hatred for all people who have sex on a regular basis or are in intimate relationships. Whenever I get DoorDash delivered and the driver is with an opposite sex person I give them zero stars and review them saying ‘nobody wants to see that shit.’ I fantasize about synthesizing ricin and putting it in water bottles or a makeshift walking cane that allows me to inject people discreetly so that there is one less person in a relationship taking away from potential sexual partners. Why do we live in a world where if you don’t have a 8” penis or are biracial then your chances of having casual sex drop from 99% to 25 or lower? The only reason I don’t kill myself now is knowing that realistic AI sex robots will almost certainly exist during my lifetime. So I’m over it, I’m just sick of these people drooling over the opposite sex like their life depends on whether or not they have engaged in sexual intimacy within the past 5 hours. I must have brought myself to ejaculation at least 3,000 times since 8 to 23 now. That is an underestimate too. When will there be an app or website or group I can join for sex addicted people so that I can meet someone and live a dysfunctional but intimate relationship out with them? I spend over 90% of my life indoors and 85% in my private room alone and away from others. My life is truly not worth living and the only positive thing about my life is the possibility that I will contribute to procuring safer cyber security prospects in my many years of sexual deviancy and proclamations of desires to perform indecent and criminal acts on innocent people. I got a diagnosis for schizoaffective disorder, but I believe in reality I am just a criminally insane sex addict. I think if I live to 30 I will start committing crimes just so that I can be dealt with instead of sweeped into the corner and pretending like I don’t exist. This world is fucking retarded and only pleasant to the people in intimate relationships or who have enough money to pay for hookups.

I’m honestly interested in moving to China and getting job placement and marriage arrangement by the government so I don’t have to deal with this retarded ass “democratic system”. All there are here are married workers, single rich people, mentally ill, and retards.

There are cripples, murderers, sex offenders, creeps, extremists, and freaks with gfs and wives and here I am single… someone just tell me why I’m single and I’ll be happy. Or tell me what the fuck is wrong with the world to give me a little more grace in holding out hope for the sex robots to come out in the coming decade or two.