Is there any way for a below average guy (5’10.5”, 6” cock, Germanic/English white, NEET, gooner, 77/100 looksmax, 215lbs) like me to have sex with a consenting female or trans female? I’m at the point where I’m considering just meeting whomever contacts me on Grindr just for the sole purpose of lack of human interaction and hyper sex drive. I’m too sociopathic to commit suicide and know that in a decade or two there will be sex robots, but the feature of sharing an intimate moment with an organic human seems like it would be better. I’m at the point where I’m genuinely considering converting to gay so that I can get off from guys getting off on me but I’m too ugly to be gay and too stubborn to be submissive… I play about 3 hours of cs2 a day and jack off for about 3-6 hours a day. In college online and disability so I can’t even work full time. I feel like the system has let down average white men and the perpetuation that having a sexual partner is key to happiness is getting to me. I want to just die and would do it if I had a guaranteed way of doing so such as cyanide or a gun which I would stream myself doing. My mind is so rotted from watching thousands of hours of YouTube like pewdiepie and markiplier, smosh, meme compilations, instagram and doomscrolling for hours each day, it’s fucking disgusting that this is the system that has been built around us. I’m nearly convinced that I’m so twisted mentally that it’s the reason I’m in this situation. Yet I want to experience everything life has to offer… is 24 the worst age in this age? I’m sure people double my age would tell me I’m just being shallow and need to focus on things that I enjoy that are tried and true. But what happens when even those things aren’t doing it for me? There’s so much shit going on politically to keep people brainwashed and ‘rooting’ for change when the changes that really will mark upward movement in society are never being addressed. If anyone wants to email me anything at all idc, porn, games, hitman services, life problems, fucking anything, my burner email is frankfrankfrankhurfert@gmail. Honestly the most entertaining thing on my mind as of recent is starting gofundmes to cancel infamous celebrities and insinuate their assassination for monetary gain… I’m stuck and I hate it. Time to watch more computer porn!
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