You're sad because you seek validation from other people, and you're glum because of external forces?
I'm sorry, but I cannot understand that. I too am relatively young, and a virgin with thinning hair, but I'm not using that as an excuse to feel bad.
Is sex really that important that you have to worry if your potential partner is going to care that you'll be bald? If they are that important to you, they'll look past your hairline. Or what you can do is just shave all of it off, and become a badass. I've seen plenty of dudes with shiny heads walk away with chicks.
> I want to kill myself forreals this time.
What a silly phase. What gets me to chuckle is the "forreals" part.
>Guys, I'm really gunna do it, forrealsys this time, and not just pretend!!
However, I recommend you think about it. Is life currently so bad you must prematurely evacuate and miss out on the rest of your life? You claim to be young, so I'm assuming you have at least another forty years of life to experience. Many things can change in forty years. Hell, many things change in just one.
You say you have no motivation? Find one. Find your muse, and let it inspire you. If you don't like it, change it. Your motivation doesn't have to be linked to anything imparticular. It could even be your vision of self-improvement, whether it's to learn a new skill, gain more knowledge of something you find interesting, or to simply quit wasting your life masturbating, it is motivation. Find the thing that motivates you, add use it for all it's worth.
In the highly likely event you're just trolling me, congratulations, you got a reply.