>>15935
Old post but interesting. Also not a real fast response:
You need to work out. Strength training, animal movements (for joints and fascia), progressive gymnast movements (planche, L/V-sit, etc. — go check out Overcoming Gravity on gen.lib.rus.ec) and sprinting (10 secs with 15 min rests is best. Trust me, scientifically backed). Google dynamic isometrics as well, figure out the general principle (very simple) and do them when you're stressed at all; helps a shit ton and is just a healthy expression of power.
What you're going through just seems like an inward directed manifestation of power. Completely normal as long as you understand that.