Hey, /mental/. I'm kind of scared shitless. For the past week, I haven't been the same. I'm a a happy guy, but now I've been reduced to a numb brain and a funny feeling in my legs. Please read through the whole thing. I want to be happy again.
Just to be clear, I have been afraid of irrational things before, like the 2012 Apocalypse, Global Warming, Slender Man, Herobrine (don't laugh), creepypastas, the Sun dying in a gorillion years, etc., but I haven't experienced anything like this.
Thing is, last Thursday I went shopping with my mom. I was already stressed out with something or other, it just didn't bother me. But then, I just lost my shit, told her she started it and that she was being ridiculous. She didn't want to go on with it, but I kept pushing her, even after we went home.
After letting go of the whole debacle, I saw a specific scene from Food of the Gods II, which scared me more than it should have. I tried to take my mind off it, watching movies and the like, but it just wouldn't go away. So, I tried and get some sleep and hope it would go away. Next thing I knew, I had a nightmare. Woke up sweating bullets and wouldn't go back to sleep. I woke up my mom, told her I didn't want to be like this, that I wanted to go to bed, etc. Two more nightmares ensued the day after. Then, my brain decided to filter out my emotions and all I can feel are my legs when I get nervous, anxious, afraid, etc. Since yesterday, I lost some of my appetite (can only stomach half of what I usually eat) and started throwing up because my stomach was too full. I don't know how this relates to the other things, just wanted to lay everything down to better solve this shit.
Yesterday, I went to a psychiatrist, will go again on Friday, and am also taking homeopathy meds (don't help much, but I don't want to risk getting fucked up by regular meds). I'm not 100% sure, but I think all of this is due to lack of sleep and from these fucking nightmares. I managed to sleep today, even if it was for a short time, which alleviated some of these things I've been going through, but I want an endgame to all this. I've read that nightmare disorders can lead to dissociative disorders and sleep deprivation can make the brain go bonkers. Will try a nausea med in a few hours, which was usually enough to tucker me out, even if I didn't feel sleepy.
But I wanted a third opinion. So I came here with my troubles. So, cards on the table:
What do you fellas take from this and how do I solve it?
I deeply apologize if this seems like aimless rambling, but I'll take any chance I can get to get better. This is pure agony.