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What's wrong with me? Patient 09/22/17 (Fri) 20:06:10 No.13903

I think I might have some sort of personality disorder (have been diagnosed with other mental health problems) but I don't know what because the group of symptoms doesn't fit with any convential diagnosis I can find

-extremely insecure. any time I have a conversation or even lesser social interaction with anyone I am constantly observing their behaviour and thinking about what their view of me is

-very paranoid and mistrustful of everyone

-very quick to irritability (not anger)

-zero empathy or guilt, I'm not saying this to be edgy but it's true, I've never attacked anyone physically but I have done really terrible things and although I sometimes feel fleeting shame I never actually feel bad about it

-very impulsive, not much concern for my own wellbeing

-extremely workshy

-never really feel any emotions apart from worry, irritability, self-hatred, and fleeting moments of good humour

-inability to enjoy anything

-form quick, strong friendships with people that usually last about 6 months until either they realise what I'm really like or I stop wanting to spend time with them and ignore them, all my friendships end like this

-lie constantly, not pathologically but whenever it could benefit me, even after people have lost all trust in me

-despite all this, generally try and be superficially nice to people and never want to hurt anyone (just don't care at all if I do)

-literally cannot think about anyone but myself at all, whenever I think about other people it's always through the filter of what they mean for my thoughts

-however, very passive and vulnerable sometimes because of my insecurity and sometimes get treated badly by people myself

-never feel lonely, never feel fulfilled, just bored and nomadic

I think there is something seriously wrong with me, I'm 24 by the way and I have been this way all my life. I have had emotionally traumatic experiences in the last few years, not much before then, but they never hit me properly. No friends, never had a proper friend. To be honest I think I am likely on the ASPD spectrum, possibly quite strongly, but I don't know for sure. I am quite self aware about it and I don't like it. I want to die because I never enjoy life.

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Patient 09/22/17 (Fri) 20:18:07 No.13904

I do also have a history of fairly serious antisocial and criminal behaviour in my adolescent years

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Patient 10/16/17 (Mon) 01:44:55 No.13921

I feel you man that list is pretty damn close to my experience as well. I've gone for treatment to try find a cure for depressions but that shit really doesn't work. They tried diagnosing me with a personality disorder couple times but they were hella off and I feel like that path was a waste of time. I'd love to try again but I'm not to eager to actually go do it.

I know I need to improve myself and have less of a shitty time and that's purely selfish but that's ok. I'm just not a natural people pleaser. Not trying to fish for attention by trying to be "different" or making it look like I wanna leave a better mark on society; I'm just tired of falling in the same holes over again. And being confused all the time in general

Been described as very independant and self reliant but I don't make it a point to be. It's easy to be friendly and stuff but you can't fake the desire to form anything beyond an emotionally distant relationship.

If the universe would just let me be a fucking ordinary Joe I can die happy. Partners are always concerned I don't express enough emotion cause my mind is occupied with constant internal processes. I don't know what I'm thinking about all the time but I cant turn it off.

Something like schizoid personality disorder makes sense cause of my mental health pedigree but I'm not liscenced to diagnose shit. Not like it's that important anyway since I've been training myself to fake social ability for a while now and even then I still barely pass… Might look like I'm playing the victim but I'm really not

Getting labeled as a government approved retard isn't going to suddenly make the struggle easier but I'm willing to do a lot as long as it makes it seem better

Good luck on whatever path you're taking dude. My diagnosis is we're just loners. Which really isn't a bad thing at all just some people like to persecute others for not playing their game. Hope you're doing alright with whatever you might be going thru

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Anonymood 10/04/18 (Thu) 18:57:08 No.14720

This is now a diagnosis thread, by the way.

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Anonymood 10/06/18 (Sat) 00:12:00 No.14738

im 18 with anger issues, i cant fucking relax,every night i cant sleep because how pointless my day was i fucking dont even know what to write here I came to here from /suicide/ because im not willing to kym yet

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Anonymood 10/07/18 (Sun) 12:37:25 No.14760

>>13903

This nigga needs Iodine.

>>14738

This nigga needs valerian root and conscious breathing exercises.

all yall niggas need to read this thread

>>14156

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Anonymood 10/09/18 (Tue) 04:32:36 No.14789

>>14760

this nigga can go sell his drugs elsewhere

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Anonymood 10/09/18 (Tue) 04:37:32 No.14790

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>>13903

Sounds like you are an Aspie fren. Read through the wiki article and tell me if you think this is at least close to your condition.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Asperger_syndrome

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Anonymood 10/19/18 (Fri) 03:21:43 No.14866

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>>14789

>Iodine and oxygen

>drugs

>not essential components of the body

>assuming I profit from suggesting basic natural medicine and breathing techniques

You're dumb but that's okay cause that means you can learn to not be dumb. Might help if you took some Iodine and selenium yourself m8. won't help you much if you're too much of a lazy ass to do some basic research and see if what I'm suggesting actually works or not.

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Anonymood 10/26/18 (Fri) 18:16:37 No.14900

>>13903

are you by chance a jew?

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Anonymood 10/28/18 (Sun) 20:59:00 No.14923

>>14900

>>1488

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