My main school bully and ringleader of all the other bullies was a qt. She had big eyes, long blonde hair, wore a lot of oversized skateboard hoodies that looked adorable on her.
I fell in love with her on the first day of middle school. A while later I did something embarrassing (passed out in class and hit my head on a wall) and since I was already socially awkward it made me a target.
I had a Piczo (shitty Myspace/Geocities blend from the mid-2000s) that I posted all kinds of emo shit on. During like the first week of Christmas Break she found it and read all about my plans to kill myself on New Years. She sent me an email apologising, promising to call off all the other bullies, and asking if we could be friends. It messed with my head so badly I called my dad the next day and asked to move in with him/transfer schools.
Really fucked up my sexuality and views on relationships for a while. I didn't realise what I felt for her was romantic until I was in High School and realised I was a lesbian.
I still get a massive ladyboner from mean, bitchy girls