It's not loneliness I have a problem with. Interpersonal connections and interactions come and go when needed.
My problem is swinging between soul crushing, intense apathy and distracting, pointless, pleasureful euphoria that I find disgusting.
What I crave is balance. And the only methods I've found to achieve it are simply unsustainable.
It's taking every fiber of my being just to avoid sleeping the days away.