>>82029
>Look man, i don't have a family.
>İ always bullied in my teenage.
>Please help me.
Dude, I want to help you, but I do not understand your situation well enough to do that. There are some general tips I can give to people who are having trouble with sexual addiction. But affecting lasting change requires making changes to your general life situation. And in order to give you adequate advice for that, I need to know were you stand and what is possible for you. Again, there is no "quick fix".
Also, from the way you answer to posts I am led to believe that you are unable to focus long enough to read and understand fully what is asked of you, and to give a thourough and coherent answer. So I am wondering if writing long, detailed answers even helps you. Or if the volume of text makes it more difficult for you to understand the general point of a post. In that case you should stop trying to get help on anonymous internet forums and talk to a priest or a shrink in your area. (But be careful that you don't select one who is part of the rainbow mafia.)
I am again going to ask you some questions, each prefaced by a number. Please respond with at least one coherent sentence to each qestion. (Even if that sentence would just be "Yes." or "No.") And please write the number of the question you are answering in front of that sentence, so it is easily readable:
1) You live alone and have no family members you trust enough to turn to with this. Is that correct?
2) How is your general physical health?
3) Do you have close friends?
4) Do you have a job or are you dependant on family or welfare?
5) Do you need alcohol to get through your week?
6) Do you smoke weed or do other drugs?
7) Are you on prescription drugs?
8) Do you have a regular sleep schedule, or do you stay up late most nights and sleep through the morning?
9) For how long did you not masturbate or watch porn already?
10) Does "İ am on nofap and left porn" really mean that you watch absolutely no porn and do not stimulate your cock at all?
11) If you get triggered and aroused by intrusive thoughts, does that happen by accident, or do you puposefully seek out these thoughts to "find out if you are really over it"?
12) Was your engagement with this filth just wanking while watching some flashy porn videos, or did you enter the territory of trance where you totally lost the sense of time and your surroundings?
13) Do you dream about this?
14) Did you in the past have a loving, close relationship with your father?
Lastly, you do not need to stress so much over this. It will be rather deep in your psyche, because you got hooked on it at such an early age. But if you didn't by accident or drug use enter extraordinary states of consciousness while indulging your perversions, you basically just have an addiction to a peculiar kind of degrading fetish. (It will still make you depressed and sap the motivation and joy from your life. But it is nothing that can't be fixed with some work.)