Found a female hypnotist my age on Omegle last week. She asked for my contact info, and I was happy to give it. I ignored my DM's all week, focusing on work & reality. I felt free from porn. Optimism surged through me.
She still hasn't messaged me. Instead of trying to contact her via the YouTube she gave me, I opted to jack off while watching hypnotic porn for almost 8 hours straight last night. Started with furry & hentai subliminals, but I brought up some satanic MK-Ultra shit, porn addiction files, and sissy hypno. Slept through church and the farmer's market, and missed a hike today, as a result.
Was doing pretty good on nofap until recently. Everybody at work talks about sex & masturbation, and one guy brought up PornHub and crossdressing. Trying to redpill them on porn only makes it more tempting to devolve into. My commitment to higher nofap streaks has made it easier to edge and to orgasm non-ejaculatorily, but I think it's better to just orgasm without porn at all than to let porn influence me and never orgasm. My pride & pleasure in the short term came first, I guess.
The day afterwards, I can jack off to just about anything. Everything, every word, every thought seems to be a hidden innuendo relating to some genre of programming. A moment came that I almost brought up porn, which was luckily interrupted by a family member, but overall I'm not that tempted to look it up today. Although my family's loving kindness is a motivator for that, I reckon Hypnotube's technical difficulties also play a role. I attempted to upload an uncorrupted anti-sissy video three times, each taking several hours, and it failed all three times. I've successfully uploaded it a couple times before, but it never got approved. I wonder if they're intentionally throttling and disabling my IP's uploading abilities at this point.
Listening to some ambient music another anon posted seems to help me to think more clearly. Goodnight anons, I'm going to sleep.