>>142758
update: We actually got some fucking real food. I don't know how long we'll sustain having real food, but God damn I have never been so excited to see ground beef. It's a morale booster, definitely gives me some hope that shit is going to get better.
>>142787
Thanks broseph
>>142816
>>142809
I actually tried to join the military, but I'm glad I didn't seeing how things turned out in my family.
I guess I can give a summary of the life of anon
>be born
>3 years later, Dad cheats on Mom, he leaves
>Mom loves us, and is as close to the model single mother as you can get
>Doesn't mean we make a lot though, Mom never finished college, so she works at every fast food joint available
>fast forward to 9 years ago, she meets a dude and he becomes our stepdad
>both of them work in fast food, but the income is enough to comfortably support the household of what would soon be 5 people
>They have a kid in the process, my now 5 year old brother, the fifth one
>things were kind of shitty, we were still broke, living in a house that my "friends" made fun of me for living in
>parents (mainly stepdad) spend fuckloads on alcohol and pot, resulting in many negative situations from age 10-17
>in this last year, my Mom finally made him leave after he essentially sat on his ass, played video games, watched twitch, and started shit for over a year
>This leaves my mother working to support 3 kids
>She works from 10am to 2, even 3am sometimes.
>with no dad in the picture, I have to be my little brother's male role-model, I have to go to the bus-stop and walk him home, I have to feed him, I have to teach him right from wrong, to check his school work, and to teach him the way of things.
As of late, it appears that the way things are going to work are like so:
We will have money to eat decently immediately after Mom gets the paycheck, but once that food runs out, we're just barely scraping by. If I can find a better means of rationing the food we have, then maybe it will be more tolerable.
I initially didn't finish the enlistment process because A) I was diagnosed with asthma as a child, and due to the fact that I can't run a mile without wheezing for an hour and a half, I assume it's still there. B) I was almost admitted into a psyche ward when I was 13, and I still have scars (I know, gay as dicks), which would have disqualified me.
I'm glad I couldn't though, if I had left when I intended, my family would be in a bind when it comes to taking care of lil bro. Not to mention my gf, it would have crushed us if I were gone. Her and her family have been such a help, they've given me experiences that I would have never known if not for them.
On another note, I wanted to switch from strength training to volume/endurance training, maybe even start a running regiment. I want to eventually overcome my asthmatic symptoms, get a waiver from my doc saying I'm not crazy, and try to enlist again one day.
Anyways, this is the end of anon's super long gay blog-post extravaganza
On another note, I wanted to switch from strength training to volume/endurance training, maybe even start a running regiment. I want to eventually overcome my asthmatic symptoms, get a waiver from my doc saying I'm not crazy, and try to enlist again one day.