>as a kid I was completely obsessed with older women
>like in their late teens and early 20s
>didnt understand why
>at a time when most kids just wanted to play around I wanted to see an older girl naked
>didnt even knew what sex was because no sex ed at the time, but still wanted to do it
>took every chance I could to see if I could catch one naked, a nip slip or whatever
>was a cute kid so older girls were always interested in me
>fast forward over 20 years
>random convo with my mother the other day, she goes down memory lane
>asks me if I remember about "that thing that happened"
>I say I have no idea what she's talking about
>she mentions some details, I say I remember about a babysitter and her friends or something
>she tells me the truth
>tells me that as a little boy for whaever reason I got lost and was picked up by three 17 year old girls who brought me to one of her parents home
>a neighbor saw them an called the cops who called my parents who were already looking for me
>they found me with the girls
>the girls were more or less naked
>a blonde one was getting me to touch her all over, foreplay probably
>apparently they got me out immediately so I didnt see the massive shitstorm that ensued between my parents, the girls and their parents once they arrived at the scene
>realize that I was nearly raped
>that the reason I was obsessed with older girls is that I got a very early start
>realize I was no different from those girls that become sexually active early on because they were abused
>therapists agree it probably messed me up
>most likely the reason I didnt get a gf in school since I only wanted older girls
>grow up to be kinda socially inept
>eventually become a doomer
>women my own age say I act childish with them
>reality is that I probably act the same way I acted with those 3 teen girls as a little boy
>basically arrested development, just like women who were raped still act like little girls except I'm a guy so nobody cares and just label me a weirdo
>one day get the courage to talk about it with a female friend
>have a real hard time telling my story
>notice her getting increasingly aroused, literally sweating
>tells me she would've totally had sex with me in my preteens
>somehow thinks I would like hearing that
>keep in mind there was never any sexual tension between us
>she keeps going
>starts asking me for pictures of me when I was that age
>ask me how "big" I was
>really goes off the rails and even asks if she would have needed birth control or if I was already making cum
>I just fucking leave
>had to else I would've probably punched her
>days later my mom tells me that friend was by the house asking for my old pictures
>mom even let her scan some with her phone
>told me she thought we were a couple now or something
>my female friend is probably masturbating to old kid-me right now
So whatever, needed to vent
