>>26442
AHEM
>>26476
>do martial arts, one of the few things that give me real pleasure
>start to get good at it, to the point of having results in some tournaments, but there's still much to go
>now while I'm sparring with my bros some chick appears out of nowhere interrupting us to hail me while smiling
>she does that shit almost every day
5 years ago I would be happy with that, but nowadays it just annoys me to no end. Dropping college, coming back, trying to kms, become an alcoholic addicted, drop alcohol, cutting ties with people, getting hookers, almost going to jail, and so on and on. Too much shit happened, and now I don't think I'm pure enough for that shit. Interacting with a young girl with a positive outcome in life couldn't possible be a good experience, as either it will be annoying to me, or I will become a bad influence to her life.
People who want doomer gfs believe that a girl with his same views and lack of hope in the future will be a better fit for him, as he don't need to hide his true feelings, while at the same time he won't drag her down as she is already there on his level. Of course, that's just another illusion, people can only happily fit in with another in a young age, when neither of the parties have too much package, so they can build it anew on their own, creating life experiences that reshape their personalities while they are still in development, a connection between both that lives on through their lives. A doomer gf is like a doomer bf, like (you) reading this are, detached, and she will never see herself as a meaningful part of your life, or yourself as a meaningful part of hers, there's already too much shit there taking place.