> be me
> 18 y/o male
> just graduated hs, attending nationally ranked uni in fall
> basically forced into my major (econ)
> work part time at retail for shit wage
> actually want to study philosophy, political science, linguistics, and basic sciences
> super religious family
> have read Nietzsche, etc since 15
> nihilistic
> everyone says college is the time of their lives and that nothing compares. And I truly feel incredibly fortunate to attend school and don't want to waste money on useless major, but I also feel like studying something I don't love will also be a waste of time
> I'll also be several hours from one of the only people I've ever truly loved
> feel like life is totally meaningless
> whats the fucking point. wealth doesn't bring joy. neither does being stuck in my shit hometown. dont see any way out that doesnt make me want to fucking die either way
> thats some catch, that catch-22
> best catch there is