/doomer/ - Doomers Club

Now it's confirmed I'm finally officially braindead. I read it and I have no idea what the fuck is this about. Is this some fanfic story?>>11263

>>11263

fairy means gay here and judging by your fag, I mean flag, says more about you than me.

>>11271

I have no fucking idea either. Don't think it's you that is the braindead one.

>>11271

It is not fanfic. It is the origin of the story from >>10852

I just don't want to shit up and derail the other anons thread any more

If you have questions I can answer them.

>>11276

>fairy

>matsurika has fairy pokemon

>you gay anon hahahaha

this was a very good word play / metaphor

but my favorite pokemon type is water Swampert FTW

>>11278

well I am reatrded so my text is probably full of autism. I can answer your questions as well.

The next event is scheduled for next week. So there won't be much to post anyways. Feel free to ask questions so we get up the pph counter and get into top 20

>>11316

any updates on the story man?

>>11263

>My sister and her seem to get along very well but my sister does not tell me what they do together nor what they talk about.

JFC anon, so you're sister is the one who introduced you two? Of course Matsurika likes you. Your sister has probably only told Matsurika the good things about you, and Matsurika therefore probably sees you the way that an incestuous mother views her sons. You say that you don't tell your sister to act like a CIA agent, but there is a 90% chance that your sister is marketing you very well to Matsurika. From a biological perspective, this is most definitely the case. This is to YOUR advantage.

But what's the update?

>>11263

>>what do you intend anon

>I have no idea.

Anon, you should do experiments on her…MK Ultra experiments, if you know what I'm talking about. She won't even know what's happening to her.

>From a rational standpoint I have nothing to offer her and she would be better off with anyone else.

>I am a Libertarian

JFC, what is wrong with libertarians? Don't you like her anon? Marry her or something.

>body was 2 long

BO is a fagit for limiting my freedom of posting walls of text

>>12243

Ah yes, I forgot this thread anons. Thanks for reminding me

Sorry but there was no meeting this week. My sister did not mention any meetup with her either.

I still did not get any new message from Matsurika. Last thing she wrote me was she is super busy and wants to go on a walk this week. It was like this in January as well. She wanted me to call her 2 weeks after I agreed to meet her because busy normalfag stuff probably.

I replied that I am okay with her showing me the lake this week and that we just have to pick a day that will be less likely to rain weather was shit entire week.

I also thanked her for taking time to do this for me.

However, I did not get another message after that.

I guess she was either super busy or she was pissed about the weather.

I loved it though. I also wrote her once that I love it when rain is hitting my windows like a drummer. She is more the summer & sunshine person. Maybe she feels bad about me now or something.

Anyways, sometimes we did not write for 2 or 3 weeks each other so maybe there will be more.

The problem is, next week, weather looks to improve very much but I am away for 10 days. I go to the books fair in Leipzig and I will eat currywurst until I puke

So even if she writes me back some time I will have to dissapoint her on spot.

I hope she won't be that mad about it. I guess April will have good weather as well

Ah now that I mention it, every early april there is a beautiful tree blossoming in my home town.

I will photograph this and send her to see this. I hope it gives her some inspiration for her work.

Ah yes and today I prepared my pots for the flowers. I will be planting flowers tomorrow or End of March and today I made my soil mixture and prepared everything. I hope this year my poppies will grow to the size of golf balls.

>>12255

nononono

We already discussed this (my imouto and I):

>anon and this I tell you unofficially, you don't know this from me

>Matsurika is currently dating some guy but unhappy about him

I already knew she was married as she had a marriage ring when we first met, with a big shiny diamond even, that guy must have loved her very much

>she wants to end the relationship

>and then my plan goes into the next phase

I told her right away she should not play any cupido or amor games and that I could never stand between the happiness of 2 people.

>JFC anon, so you're sister is the one who introduced you two? Of course Matsurika likes you

I introduced them. Or should I say I gave them each others phone number and they met up a few times.

They get along well because they are similar in nature. Both are upbeat and sunny so I thought they would befriend each other quickly.

>Your sister has probably only told Matsurika the good things about you

my imouto told me she never talks about me

but one time she wrote me something like this in a text: "yeah and matsurika was right about you, you are a good person"

I am not sure what they discussed. She never went deeper into this. I just told her she could not be an artist if she was not able to feel such things and put feelings into her paintings.

>Matsurika therefore probably sees you the way that an incestuous mother views her sons.

I knew this evolves into some freudian / jungian story

>You say that you don't tell your sister to act like a CIA agent, but there is a 90% chance that your sister is marketing you very well to Matsurika.

probably. I hope not, this would be so dirty and it was not what I wanted to happen.

>From a biological perspective, this is most definitely the case. This is to YOUR advantage.

I don't want to have any advantages or use tricks or anything…

>>12262

to be a libertarian, you have to be a special type of turbo autist. it is just what I noticed in many of us.

people also call us egoist but society wanting you to conform to their bullshit is the true egoist.

matsurika seems to be pro freedom as well so I wonder if we can talk about The Road to Serfdom, Human Action and credit and interst Austrian Economics literature and how rulecuck central banks destroy the economy with pump and dump schemes

I mean she does like golden color and she mostly wore black clothes. Black and gold being the lolberg colors

>Don't you like her anon? Marry her or something.

I do like her a lot. Being around her makes me feel alive and fresh. Talking to her feels super good and I never met anyone like her so far my entire life internet included. She is just so diverse and it feels like she already lived 2 lives and took all her wisdom with her into her current life. And I don't have anyone else to hang out with anyways.

But love is a different thing. you cannot just marry someone.

Then I also have the same feeling that I had about my elementary school crush:

>I am not good enough, I would only make her unhappy, she is better off with anyone other than me

Anyways, I hope I can deliver a good story for you to enjoy. I have no idea how this plays out.

>>12265

>Anyways, I hope I can deliver a good story for you to enjoy. I have no idea how this plays out.

I can't wait for the ending. God, I wish I could dissect her mind with my MKUltra toolkit. It's fun to understand people, especially busy people. Just to see what's in there.

>>12277

I'm very interested (in an Aspergersy fashion) in what motivates people, especially those that are focused and work hard towards their goals. FMC in this story seems quirky and interesting (whether this is true or just a result of OP's writing we can't be sure.)

Anyway once swedanon blows her mind with his jewish anime nihilism he can sexually dominate her and feed her his superior nordic genes.

>>12303

Your patience will be rewarded, I'm sure of it. But most importantly, take care of your plants. Women come and go like the days of our lives. But a plant is your friend. And there is nothing more fulfilling in this life than doing what you want to do, when you want to do it. Serious relationships are like a prison. You don't need Matsurika, and you seem intelligent enough to see that. But either way it's good to hang out with her when you feel like it. Good job anon. I'm proud of you.

>>12307

thank you anon

>Your patience will be rewarded, I'm sure of it.

I hope so. I mean, I don't want to stress anyone. If she really enjoys my company then I will gladly give her that time.

>But most importantly, take care of your plants.

sure thing, BO is waiting for my home-grown opium and the peyote powders

>Serious relationships are like a prison.

and yet humans crave them. and when they have them, they wish they dont. The eternal problem of cost of oppurtunity

>oh dawg, if I were in relationship now I would be so happy

>oh gawd, this relationship is exhausting, I wish I were free again

I already accepted that humans can never be happy

>You don't need Matsurika, and you seem intelligent enough to see that.

I can not give her happiness in the relationship sense. I am broken. She looks like a perfect normie. She better go find herself some designer or architect or something. I can only drag her into the abyss.

>But either way it's good to hang out with her when you feel like it. Good job anon. I'm proud of you.

thank you

It is Sven again anons

There is a new episode to my reality tv show:

>no walking at the lake as until now

>no new text messages either

>last weekend I get a text from my imouto

<anon, today I met matsurika again

<she is officially single again

<but I have to tell you she is not the type of person capable of love

<she only loves change and is shapeless like wind

<pretty much a freedom minded girl who likes entertainment

<she is also kind of femme fatale archtype

you don't say …

my reply was the following

>that we don't match well was something I knew in January already

<okay, how did you know?

>it was when I asked her about drawing

>if she gets tired of drawing on command

>she just shrugged it off and said you need to do it fast

>my bestie could never do something like that

>she is void of any energy after every competition she goes to

>matsurika is either ice cold or very professional at separating business from private

<that is very clever of you onii-chan

<let me tell you another thing

<she called the cops on her ex now

<some time ago she also slapped him

let me remark one thing here. I laughed reading that part.

My inner eastern yuropean would not have tolerated this ever. I am polite to everyone but I am ready to chainsaw everyone who wants to fuck me over. The guy must have been a local nice guy.

<also how she talks about men

<what she is attracted to

<tall, strong, good-looking

<her shallowness is just shining through

<she can also be a genius as well and very interesting but she is not the type of girl you would want to date

<oh and another thing, if she knew you are loaded, she would probably be very interested in you

>wait, she thinks I am a poorfag?

<no but she likes the high society life and has no idea what to think about you or what you are like

I am probably an anomaly in her matrix and that got her interested

>well, she was pretty warm to me but this coldness was always in the background

>now I just wonder if all of it was an act or her way of mesmerizing gullible men

>but well, who am I to judge her, we are both actors in a way, lol

<I think behind her warmth was a different motivation than what one would usually expect and I don't like this

>But I do think this high society crap suits her well. She does have this majestic aura and behaviour/confidence

>In a way she reminds me of Yulia Timoshenko. People call her the ice princess of ukraine.

<yeah, ice princess suits her well

<on one side she also mocks high society for the circus they play. sounds hypocritical in a way

<not authentic at all and I don't like it

<brother, I love it how well we get along

>I love it too, sister

So let me make a bold assumption about her motivations and modus operandi:

>She married a faggot to get permanent residency matsurika is a russian broad and fits pretty much all the bad cliché characteristics

>Then she finds a guy every few months/years for novelty/thrill/inspiration whatever.

>Now a wild Sven appears. He is different from anything she met before. This might have gotten her interested

>quit relationship with current guy

she did not write me anything back since early march. If she was in relationship war it would be no surprise

But I have to confess, now she really got my full attention. At first I thought she was just having bad luck or something but the situation now seems to rather be about pure malefic behaviour. I am really interested to find out more about her now. Who is the person behind the mask? What is her motivation? What makes her interested in me?

There is a beautiful tree blossoming every april and I intended to send her some pics of it. I also need to thank her for spending time with my imouto on her bday when I was away. I don't understand her at all either but now she really got me interested. Feel free to share your thoughts.

Another update

Today I wrote Matsurika again.

I thanked her for spending time with my sister on her B-Day and that there is a tree I want to show her now in blossoming time. I wonder if she is mad at me or something as it has been 20 days since her last message. It is probably nothing though.

Then the update is about my sister and the new convo I had today with her:

>talking about how our days were

>sister changes subject

<today I meet a friend from high school

<I need to help him with dating advice

>oh how kind of you

<yeah he told me his new girl said she was feminist

<I need to tell him what he is up to

>some more messages we exchange then she sends me

<yeah you know maybe she is one of those thots who like chads and tyrones

>I just sit there perplexed

>sister, do you lurk leddit or 4channel?

>gives me an evasive answer

<well it is controversial but most of it is true from what I observed at girl friends

>we continue talking about fagtows and how retarded their belief is

so anons, I now only have to find out what red pill sites she lurks

maybe if she did not find 4gag yet, I can save her from the insanity

A few years ago I already suspected her to be an anon because of some jokes she made

I have the best sister in the world anons

>>13323

Any updates on Matsurika anon. What are your feelings nowadays? Have you gotten over her yet?

>>14980

Oh right I forgot this bread completely

Late March I sent her a message. I thanked her for spending time with my sister on her bday because at that time I was travelling. It surely meant much to her.

She then sent me a few images she took. Flowers and cherry trees near where she lives. She really has a talent for phorography as well and she manages well to capture a mood, atmosphere or special color compositions.

Then I sent her some images of a magnolia tree that we have in my town. It is a very big one with gorgeous blossoms. Interestingly there is no scent to notice while Matsurika told me the scent of the trees in her street is very strong.

Anyways she wrote me that she will write again soon but there have been no new messages for 2 or 3 weeks. Last thing I heard was she went home to vitit her parents. I guess she was uber busy or something. She mentioned this last time.

>What are your feelings nowadays?

she is a genius and I would like to ask her some more stuff about freedom and us being similar, I cannot shake this out of my head and there are a few more paintings I need. I always thought it is best to ask her in person but now the time is running away and I will have to send her a text soon. Never make plans anons because plans never work out in the end. Better make everything freestyle.

>Have you gotten over her yet?

I never had big hopes for a love story here, I was just wondering what kept her interested. Maybe now she lost interest for good. Maybe because I was uber passive. Maybe she really was into me and then thought I am too much of a fag. Who knows.

On wednesday I meet my sister and I asked her to show me the lake. Apparently they hang out there often. I want to see where Matsurika gets her inspiration and I wonder if it is like the river promenade in my town.

And I have to ask my sister about them chads and tyrones and what websites she lurks. I guess it will be youtube comments section, roosh v forum or leddit but worst case is she found 4gag already and then she is basically lost forever and will never be normal again. I hope for the best though.

Thank you for your interests. I will keep you informed about updates. Just don't expect much to happen from now on.

I thought I need to update here because I met my sister on thursday:

>brother, I miss you, let's meet

>meet at city in afternoon

>go for tea and cake

>we talk

>she has a guy interested in her, some computer science guy

>shows me matsurikas lake route

>very beautiful view, parks and there was even a magnolia tree (a little one)

>Matsurika has good taste, as expected

I asked her about chad and tyrone. Asked her what she browses, leddit, 4channel or youtube comments. She gives evasive answer like *everything but I never post comments*. I felt like she only knows the manosphere videos on youtube so there might be hope for her. I think she does not know my power level yet but there was an interesting convo:

>and anon when you interested in a girl, let us meet up so I can scan her

>like her intentions and stuff

<lol, I am expert in this

>oh really, how do you find out then?

<the most important indicator is when people are attracted to status symbols

>for example I wonder if she thought it was about matsurika

<some people I studied with together and yes, I thought about matsurika

The other interesting thing was, we talked about a friend of mine who does not contact me for 4 years then appears out of the blue in 2017 because he needs money:

>oh yes and that guy lol

<yeah, he wrote me again a few days ago

<I crossed him out of my life in 2017 already

<I don't need people like him, I am not a ressource to anyone

>heehee, you right

I feel like this frightened her a little because I felt like she wanted to ask something but didnt have courage

Then I go home and find Sol thread with link to online tarot reading:

>make reading

>following result:

>Unsettling news that helps you to distance yourself from a

>destructive relationship. Painfully honest communication

>that needs to take place. Not letting yourself be dragged

>by your emotions into a negative situation. A trust or

>confidence betrayed in an attempt to help someone in

>need. The revelation of a painful truth.

the next day I get a text:

<hey brother, I think I will have to ask you for money, some of my payments are not arriving yet

<something about a summer job and vacation later in the year

>sure, we can talk about this later

Internally wanting to vomit

but now that I think of it, she did mention her financial struggles and how her bank account only has 1K9 on it or something.

I am really a retard when it comes to picking up those clues. And she like implied she did not eat anything that day and like she wanted us to go to burger king. God I am so retarded

However, today I felt like vomiting again

>4/20

>get message from sister

>hello anon what you up to?

<nothing, internet, business, you?

>oh nothing, I celebrate 420 day

<420? like blaze it 420 or adolf-day 420

>oh really hitlers bday

>no I mean blaze it

>I go to a friend's

>don't worry last time I smoked was in february

<that's what all addicts say

>and that stuff is expensive anyways

now I finally understand and everyting makes sense with the asking for monies

future drug failure in the making but talks about how her sister is not ladylike queens bogart dat blunt for sure kiddo

>just when you think your own sister is not like all the other thots

>you find out that she is on the very same trajectory to become just like all the other thrill seeking consumerist broke-ass retards

Oh and about Matsurika. I have no idea what she is doing now. We did not text anything anymore and I doubt I will see her again. But my sister mentioned her twice. They seem to hang out once a week together.

So naturally now I wonder if Matsurika is the genesis pothead in this story or that February is just a coincidence.

She did mention a pothead who was 1 year her junior but she did not seem nor smell like a smoker.

Or if it was her ex who got her interested in this stuff because he was some shady fellow with tattoos and dead end job.

Or probably her normie friends.

Whatever, my sister is grown up and I can't parent her.

If she wants to become a zero, so be it.

existence is a nigger anons, I hate to be seen as ressource

I know this started as Matsurikas thread but now I guess I will just use it as my blog

As far as Matsurika is concerned, I gave her the other 2 paintings to draw.

She agreed so I guess I can go to the wedding in July with a good present.

Now, Time for another blogpost

>My sister came to visit today

>baked me lemon cake

>bretty gud tbh

>we talked

she told me one particularily sad story

>a friend of hers (girl)

>known each other because she was in the friend group of her ex bf

>girl has bf

>they have been together for 10 years already

>he is unfaithful and whoring around with other girls

>she is loyal to him

>everyone in the friend group knows it

>except her once again, a classic one

>nobody wants to destroy her fantasy who needs enemies with "friends" like this

>december last year

>her bf quits the relationship

>on christmas eve

>over phone

>girl is 31

>her dream was to have family of her own

>she wasted 10 years on some fuckboy

>she is now back to square one

>4 months before breakup

>she checks their shared bank account statement

>400$ spent in Flagship store of Agent Provocateur women's underwear company

<what have you been buying there honey?

>It was for my friend

<when I buy a 5$ cup of coffe from our shared account you always start drama with me about it

this is what i mean that women are getting the same problems as everyone else.

When cowboys can milk a cow for free, they sure as fuck will not buy one.

And the saddest thing is, she said something like

>I never pressed him into marriage because I didn't want to stress him with it

Sure she was stupid for wasting 10 years with some guy that does not want to propose to her.

But he is a complete and utter subhuman for exploiting her naivité like that.

What WHO is predicting is right. In a few years, there will be a raging mental illness epidemic and people will suicide over unfulfilled lives en masse.

Other than that. For me it is time again for vacation. I fly to homeland again to visit a fortune teller lady. My mother was at her office in 2017. She took one of my shirts and gave it to her for some shamanic ritual. The lady knew everything about me. Every single detail. Interesting thing was also that she urged my mother to come visit her in person. I guess she already saw my current situation back then. Now I finally want to settle this once and for all. I go visit her and want to hear what she has to say about me. Then I also want to ask her if I am rotten like the other normalshits that I love to hate. In the end it would be ironic if I was same as them …

This whole thread reads like some self-idealistic loverboy fantasy

But it goes to show men really are more sentimental than women.