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Need Help/Advice Christanon 02/20/19 (Wed) 01:01:24 e81f77 No.773123

i'm sorry if theres a thread i should be posting this in but my head isnt straight right now so i might've missed it.

Ever since i was young i've dealt with suicidal thoughts and depression, but now i feel like im at the end of my rope. I understand that suicide is a sin but i have so little tying me to this world that i have a hard time denying how little death would affect my life in any way. I was raised Catholic but im nonpracticing and i havent felt a spiritual connection to God in years, it's as if i'm being ignored or outright forgotten by him. I understand that i'm a sinner and it's selfish of me to think this way. To be blunt, i feel like im extremely close to killing myself almost every day but im waiting for my life to either become so irreparable that death would be the better option or for some beacon of hope to shine through.

Have you Anons ever experienced something similar? Is there hope? Will my prayers be answered even if i'm a sinner?

i'm sorry if this comes off as "venting" or attention whoring but i really don't have anyone else to turn to.

Christanon 02/20/19 (Wed) 01:10:52 c81b25 No.773125

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Are you saved? Have you ever asked God to forgive you because of your faith in Jesus?

Christanon 02/20/19 (Wed) 01:25:22 675f39 No.773126

>>773123

Your prayers are being answered right now insofar as you have come to us for help; that you received the impetus to seek help is proof enough that you are not forgotten. Feeling distant from God is not a sign of desolation; even great saints experience such distance as a means of strengthening their resolve. What you are experiencing, however, is a hardness of heart, which all who drift from God experience, to the point that most people consider such hardness the norm, despite the fact that deep down, most also feel it is unnatural. It is difficult to elucidate such a state to one who has experienced virtually nothing but it, so what I recommend you do is read autobiographies lives of saints such as Augustine and Therese of Liseaux who have made it out of such despair. Or simply talk to your local priest. Remember, God is merciful, and to be like God means to be merciful both to others and to yourself. God's forgiveness is perfect, and is stronger than whatever guilt you have.

Christanon 02/20/19 (Wed) 03:38:07 b2c4bf No.773175

>>773123

Despair is a grievous sin against the Lord. How can you despair? Do you not know that He is always watching over you? Often I reflect on my short life and remember the uncountable times that the Lord had saved me from myself, though I didn't know it at the time. There were many occasions on which I should've died and many on which my sinful decisions would've changed my life permanently for the worse. Perhaps do some reflection, anon, and try to recognize all the good our Lord has done for you.

P.S. suicide is murder, you are an innocent person and have not the authority of God to take your own life. See Book 1, City of God, St. Augustine.

Christanon 02/20/19 (Wed) 06:37:12 269b19 No.773212

Please develop a prayer life. One of the best ways to start is to pray the Rosary daily. You can download the Laudate app and go over the daily Bible readings and reflections on it.

Watch this video to understand what you've been missing and need at Mass.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P45BHDRA7pU

https://www.stphilipinstitute.org/videos/eucharistic-miracles

Go setup some time to speak to a priest at your local parish and go to confession.