So, I've been always concerned about the future, you know, the usual stuff (islam reproducing faster, thelemite influence in media, cultural marxism, etc…)
Last sunday while trying to pray at the church, while doing my usual John 17 style prayer (praying for myself, then family, then friends, etc… until reaching the whole world) when I reached the part of praying for the world, I felt like something was squeezing my heart and I couldn't pray out loud what I wanted to.
After a while trying, my prayer for the future of the world changed, and only then I could end my prayer.
Then another day at night I tried again, prayer went normal until I was going to pray for the future of the world, and this time I felt like a massive weight had dropped on me, forcing me to kneel and bow, and again I couldn't finish my prayer until I changed it to a particular wording.
Anyone has any idea what is that?