I need advice /christian/, I'm completely lost.
>be me
>spend entire life wanting to become a writer
>write a few books, have them published by small-time companies because the big companies are Jewish-controlled and only like marxist material
>begin writing screenplays, the ultimate dream is to see my name on the big screen
>begin watching movies, notice every other movie nowadays has a gay main character or a black as the hero
>all the bad guys are white heterosexual males, even those are played by jews
>all major box office and academy award winners push the agenda HARD
>realize I'll have to marxify my screenplays and further the Satanic/Globalist agenda if I want to have a career
My motivation is completely sapped. I feel there is no hope that what I write will ever be given credence unless I sell my beliefs down the river, and even then, I know it'd be rejected by future generations.
The only thing I'm good at is writing. And lately I feel like I can't do it anymore. I'd rather die with my beliefs than live a hypocrite, but that idea is unbearable. There is no exposure when I write good works, only bad gets coverage. I'm so winnie the pooh afraid I'll have to give up my dreams and wagecuck for the rest of my life.
Help me /christian/, what should I do?