>>736281
If it's too much for you, deary, too much self-control and too much self-discipline required to live your life without some overlord standing over you with a wooden paddle telling you what you should and should not be doing, that you cannot bear the thought of having responsibility for "working out your own salvation", that you need – desperately – to cede that to someone who'll take all the blame and responsibility for your life …
… then by all means, run back to ecclesiastical authority, run back to the priesthood of the temple, and run back to your mother's womb while you're at it.
The rest of us will follow Jacob's lead and wrestle day and night with the Lord demanding, seeking, pleading for His blessing, to live a holy life before Him.
And, yes, that will mean that we make errors, that we fight amongst ourselves because we are but human, because we mistake the laws the Spirit has imposed on our individual selves for being those universal … "meat sacrificed to idols?! Heretic!" … but, we will also be aware that that which we see now in a mirror only dimly we shall yet see in complete glory come the end of things, that it is in that very struggle to live according to His (the Spirit's) guidance that we learn, day by each day, to hear His voice. Hear His voice but faintly now, but in full glory come the end of things.
This is what you hinder.