Lately I've been having a lot of problems with money, health, family, and school. Nothing ever seems to improve, and the only time I feel at ease is when I have drugs in my body. Doesn't really matter what they are, but mostly hallucinogens and alcohol. Right now I'm only taking caffeine powder and drinking wine on prescribed days, but I feel more and more like just giving in and becoming a full blown addict and just doing drugs until I die, but I would go to hell for doing so.