I have a conundrum that I have been mulling over. I hear two things regarding Christianity, specifically with believing in God. They are opposing statements:
1. You can only go to Heaven if you believe in God.
2. If you are a good person, do your best to not be evil and to follow the general teachings of the bible, even if you do not believe in God, you will go to Heaven.
The reason I ask is that, as someone on the autism spectrum, a 100% belief in God is impossible as far as I can tell. I try, but it requires unquestioning belief, and I can only falter in that regard. That tells me there is no point in trying. However, I do my best to be patient and to help those in need when asked. I don't do as much as I should (I like video games, so I buy that instead of donating time/money to a good cause, and I have to buy medicine and such) but I try not to be evil. My worst sin is masturbation, which I know I am guilty of and keep trying to stop and faltering. Part of that is my lack of faith.
So my post boils down to a simple question. If I cannot believe in God 100%, is it worth me trying to be a good Christian, even if that means I will not go to Heaven? To be clear, I believe Jesus existed, but that is because there is physical evidence he existed. You could say God exists due to everything around us, but to me, this plane of existence was not entirely created by God, but he may have molded it and corrected it when he deemed it necessary.