Christ said in Matthew 22:37:
<And he said to him, “You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.
But what does it mean to love God? I feel like this is a verse that a lot of Christians, even those who make love a major part of their sermon, not really expound on. What does it mean to love Christ. When I think of people who I love in my life I think of a real feeling of love and care for them. One special instance would be when I was 16. I was in sixth form and bunking class. While I was I met another girl who was on break. Initially I wasn't attracted to her but after we spoke for an hour I felt a spark. It was like a light lit up and I felt attracted to this girl. Her normal face became the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. Here eyes reminded me of a super nova and her hair as smooth as a river. I remember when I would think about her during the times that I was depressed merely the thought of her would take away all sadness that I had. All I could think about her and the thought of not having her killed me. She was my world and the thought of not being with her was like death to me.I
The reason why I mention this is because my love of Christ pales in comparison to the love that I had for this girl. 4 years on and I still think about her, I still regret not pursuing her and the thought of not having her still hurts me. I have never loved Christ this much and I'd be lying if I said I love Christ this much now.
If I'm supposed to hate my friends family and everyone in comparison as Luke 14:26 states:
<If anyone comes to me and does not hate his own father and mother and wife and children and brothers and sisters, yes, and even his own life, he cannot be my disciple.
To God Himself then how am I supposed to enter God's kingdom. What even is love?
Also, I dont feel like good works is even a good indicator anymore. I'm sure pelagius did good works, yet even he was a heretic. All those who are in the kingdom of God did His will but not all those who do His will, will be in heaven as we see in Matthew 7:22:
<Many will say to me on that day, 'LORD, LORD, did we not prophesy in your name and in your name drive out demons and in your name perform many miracles?'
I feel sad mane.