>Scared/too lazy to join a church because I don't want to join the wrong one while all of them seem like shit options even though one must be objectively correct
>Very few friends that of which don't really even want to talk or meet up with me
>No goals because the big main goal I've had since childhood was making friends while putting everything behind in a vain effort to be even a little bit happy like all the people I see around me with their friends/groups (which only worked temporary in the last year of high school and even then not that well)
>The few things I could say are goals have been crushed by the fact that they have been ruined by Jews Satanists (that being animation and computing)
People are telling me these are supposed to be the happiest years of my life but I'm still trying to make friends like it's winnie the pooh kindergarten. I'm so far behind the people that are supposed to be my peers because I've been so depressed for the vast majority of my life. The only time's I've ever felt even a little happy was when I've been around others I care about (even though I know they didn't really care much for me) and the one time someone invited me into their church. I just want to have friends to share things with and things to be passionate about. I hate the world, why does it have to be so bad? I can't relate to my family because I moved away from most of them when I was in 5th grade, one of my brothers is retarded and the other one just hates me. I just don't know what to do. It seems like any kind of advice doesn't apply to me. I just want it to end.
I didn't know where to post this. This place seemed better than /b/ so here it is.