>>648219
Blessed are those that mourn for they shall be comforted. When you feel miserable, focus and place your misery on HIM to carry you through it. It will be hard, but that is what makes you special, your ability to do this for HIM.
>The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. Psalm 34:18
>5 I will boast about such a man, but I will not boast about myself, except in my weaknesses. 6 Even if I wanted to boast, I would not be a fool, because I would be speaking the truth. But I refrain, so no one will credit me with more than he sees in me or hears from me, 7 or with these surpassingly great revelations.
>So to keep me from becoming conceited, I was given a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. 8 Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. 9 But He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is perfected in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly in my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest on me. 10 That is why, for the sake of Christ, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong. 2 Corinthians 12:5-10
There is no easy "feel good" way into his kingdom. It will be a struggle for all of us, such is the price we pay for going against the world and following him. If the world hates you that is a good thing and shows that you are with him and he is with you. We're all going to resemble pic related with a shit ton more wrinkles and blown off limbs before our lives ends. This is our cross, it wasn't easy for Christ going up the hill, it wasn't easy for Abraham going to offer up his son and it will not be easy for us. But just take it take by day anon, it will hurt, but you must endure. There will be good days and a lot of bad days, but look up at the night sky and see that there is more darkness than light, but that makes the light all the more precious, such is the light of our lord which must shine through you.