Hay guys
Its my new years resolution to become a regular church goer. However, i am a bit apprehensive. In the past years my confidence has really increased. I enjoy doing new things , speaking to new people , even going on dates. I like to have a drink every now and then and go to partys. I like reading other peoples opinions and talking to them, have ideas bounce of each other. The world has become interesting and exciting to me. I like the idea of travelling the world and doing what ever within gods morality.
However, I fear that If i go to church and get church friends im always gonna feel like some ones always watching me, making sure im in step , while in the past ive discovered it all on my own. I feel like just as the world is opening up to me , this entity has come along and said "oh no we gotta keep you safe in bubble wrap". Im aware that the atheist culture has poisoned my mind on this matter and im totally over reacting , but i cant shake this conflicted feeling inside of me that I either destroy myself via the church or the insane option of getting away from it all.
As church folk yourself, do you feel that the church respects you individuality? I know I do wrong and would like to refine myself , but something inside of me , perhaps pride just does not want to be coerced into it. Your thoughts would be most valuable.