I want to seek death,im sick of it all.
i DO desire to fornicate,but alas!my "jiminy cricket" tells me not to do so.
is it REALLY wrong to seek death but without suicide? Like, extreme sports,undergoing long fasts in the cold, so on.
MAybe once i "died"my souls says "oh bother I died that hurt so much",,would I feel regret? IF i keep going ill do stuff much worse than what I did until now. then i wont stop, I cant.
I did pray/fast, for a lot of time, I cant overcome my mounstrous lust.
such cases ;_;
i have enough cash for long training course and then climbing dangerous mountain.