I'm depressed, slowly becoming envious of my brother…I never ever felt envy in my life, very little at best.
He learns so easily, while I always struggle: took me years to grasp English; he knows how to write and speak it and also Japanese, can draw very good stuff and has a great imagination. He's also taller and more confident than me, and he's younger than me. I always admired him while all he had for me was criticism and nothing more than having me around as a sidekick.
I am already loosing my faith, all that I want to avoid is even get on a mental war with myself over my brother and our value as individuals. I was a fool to go back to /pol/, that place is poison.