448099 No.559301
I think I am going to commit suicide soon. Help /christian/…
79297c No.559306
Don't do it my man
Could you tell us a little about yourself?
f40199 No.559308
>>559301
if you commit suicide, you lose your freedom. You are not making it any better for yourself at least this is what i tell myself.
My life is horrible too but i still like it
a37715 No.559309
>>559301
Please don't friend. God's will is good and it is for you to continue your life. Let God's glory manifest in yourself by trusting in him, and stepping away from such thoughts and actions. Our good God loves you. Prayers are being sent your way, friend.
319cd8 No.559310
Please don't. Trust in Jesus, ask to be delivered from these thoughts. Read the bible too.
Psalm 143
>7 Hear me speedily, O Lord: my spirit faileth: hide not thy face from me, lest I be like unto them that go down into the pit.
>8 Cause me to hear thy lovingkindness in the morning; for in thee do I trust: cause me to know the way wherein I should walk; for I lift up my soul unto thee.
>9 Deliver me, O Lord, from mine enemies: I flee unto thee to hide me.
>10 Teach me to do thy will; for thou art my God: thy spirit is good; lead me into the land of uprightness.
>11 Quicken me, O Lord, for thy name's sake: for thy righteousness' sake bring my soul out of trouble.
448099 No.559311
>>559306
I fucked almost everything in my life up. I am a complete and utter loser. I use to be a devout Christian, and I still have my faith, but God is so far from me. I literally don't know if I can get out of the situation I am in. I don't even know if I'll be able to get a decent paying job… I'm just going to be a fucking loser living at home now. I have no friends, never had a real gf, I'm ugly, I'm lazy, and I fucking hate myself. And it's all my fault too. If I would have just listened to what people said, I wouldn't have fucked my life up. But I didn't listen. Where is God? Why is he so far? I feel mad at him, and in fact I just prayed and asked him to appear to me but… nothing… Which caused me to get really angry at him… I don't need proof of him because I already fully believe in him, I just need him. WHERE IS HE!? WHY DOESN'T HE EVER HELP ME!? WHY THE FUCK DID I HAVE TO BE PUT INTO THIS SITUATION! WHY COULDN'T HE JUST FUCKING MAKE ME SOMEBODY ELSE WITHOUT ALL THESE PROBLEMS I HAVE!? I JUST WANT TO FUCKING DIE AND BE DEAD! I DON'T WANT TO LIVE!
f3af54 No.559312
Well what's happening my dude? Just know that nobody in this world is left unloved. Even if it feels like nobody on earth is there for you, just know that you have the privilege of being best friends with the most holy, powerful, immortal, and all-knowing Creator of the universe.
And even if you were the only one on this planet, He would still send his only son to suffer and die for you.
My prayers are with you, anon. I've been through tough shit and I have friends who have gone/are going through tough shit, but these worldly problems are completely trumped in comparison to God's everlasting kingdom to come.
>For God so loved the world, as to give his only begotten Son; that whosoever believeth in him, may not perish, but may have life everlasting. (John 3:16)
>"And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes: and death shall be no more, nor mourning, nor crying, nor sorrow shall be any more, for the former things are passed away." (Revelation 21:4)
<I don't even know who you are or what you're going through (and I hope you will tell us some so we can do the best we can), but just now, I just shed a few tears as I typed this because I am reminded how much God loves each and every one of us no matter what and that especially includes you.
Hang in there, bud.
f3af54 No.559313
>>559312
note: didn't see >>559311
79297c No.559314
>>559311
I can relate to a lot of what you just said, Until recently I hadn't had a stead job, and for now I still only have it part time. I ditched college after two years and left my prospects of a future good job behind for at least a while. I have few friends and because I have social issues I often don't want to spend time with them, and the one girlfriend I had was based on social pressure from each side, at this point I'm convinced I don't really know how to ask someone out. I'm still living at home except for occasionally sleeping in my van which I plan on moving into in time. I'm also lazy, tonight I ditched Church planning to make a thread asking for help with some of my problems, but as soon as I touched the computer all hopes of that happening where gone. I frequently find myself wishing I could die already, but in the last little while I haven't really wanted to commit suicide, as I used to want to frequently. I personally credit this to participation in the Church. I might not like my life, but something about being a member of the Church and studying the Bible and praying regularlyish keeps me from at least wanting to take my own life. Do you have a Church you attend frequently? I don't want to turn this into a denom thread or anything, but whatever type of Christian you are it is important to be going to Church, and if you are unsure of your beliefs it would still be better to frequent somewhere you aren't sure of yet then no where at all. If you have a church or can find one I would also suggest talking to the pastor or priest in charge in private and explaining what you are going through, if he's a pastor worth his salt he should be able to help. Finally I would advise confession if at all possible, in many churches this won't be allowed if you aren't a member, but you could ask if you could confess and the prayers of absolution not be read, this would be up to the priest. I'll be praying for you as I'm sure many others here will be, and I would love to hear any more details you would like to share
f40199 No.559315
>>559311
like i said my friend we are exactly on the same situation. Friends are as rare as a diamonds. You'll be lucky to find people who takes joy in your presence.and even luckeir to find people who cares for you. Relationships are rare, not the default.
We are on the same boat but it isnt so bad,
>>559308
aa0a19 No.559317
>>559311
I've been through a suicide / depression period myself, anon. I know how you feel. Just hold on. You're alive because God wants you to be. You are who you are because that's who God needs you to be.
Just remember that your work and His isn't finished yet. Right now, you're being made into the person that God wants to spend eternity with. Remember, always remember, that He loves you enough to live forever with Him.
f3af54 No.559321
In that case, my two cents would be to remember/reread the book of Job. God want us to be patient, and the patience will definitely pay off.
God did not put you in this situation, but it was man's sin that gave ourselves over to evil powers which brought us suffering, depression, evil, death, etc. These things are the opposite of God's will. Consequentially, that is why the Lord was incarnate on this earth as His Son, Jesus Christ, to free us from the prison that we created for ourselves if we were to trust and have faith in Him.
My point is that these things are terrible, but they are temporary. I would advise speaking to a pastor and/or a therapist to help you through this, but never give up. I believe in you :)
f3af54 No.559322
448099 No.559324
>>559314
I basically only go to church for special occasions now (Christmas, Easter, Assumption, All Saints, etc.) but I just find myself too lazy and uninterested to go outside of those times… My relationship with God has deteriorated, it's not like it use to be. There was a point when I went full atheist but I just couldn't stay there and came back to faith. And I do believe, trust me I do. I don't have any doubts about God. I feel like I am now in a marriage gone sour. I don't feel God anymore. I rarely pray to God anymore. I rarely worship him anymore. And I feel angry at him. Why isn't he helping me? Even if my relationship does improve with God, how will that better my other situations? Where is he!!!!?
448099 No.559326
>>559315
It is somewhat comforting to know I'm not completely alone here…
79297c No.559328
>>559324
>Even if my relationship does improve with God, how will that better my other situations
If you have peace with God you can work through the rest. I think those three things are really the key: reading the Scriptures, praying and going to Church. More later
448099 No.559329
>>559317
>>559321
Thanks for caring enough to reply guys.
448099 No.559331
>>559328
Right now, I honestly feel hopeless.
f40199 No.559336
>>559326
Yeah but life isnt really that bad despite hitting rock bottom. I could still read philosophy and theology and work out. Life is still great in general but in career life and relationships it seems bleak and dismal but thats not what life is
127d40 No.559337
>>559331
Trust God, if you look at Psalms you'll see how hopeless David felt but God comforted him
448099 No.559340
>>559336
I just feel like I wasted all the potential I had.
aa0a19 No.559341
>>559331
Our hope is in Jesus Christ. As surely as The Father raised him from death, you will make it through this. Hope does not disappoint us.
127d40 No.559344
448099 No.559346
127d40 No.559347
>>559346
you've lived only a short time, a lot of people don't get it together until their 30s. You're lucky to be having introspection so young
448099 No.559349
>>559347
I don't feel very lucky… I feel like a loser idiot…
79297c No.559350
>>559331
I honestly think Church, prayer, and the Scriptures will help, don't give up on yourself without even trying these.
>>559346
You're still very young, you have so long to turn your life around
aa0a19 No.559352
>>559346
>19
I didn't start getting my life in order until I was about 23, and it took 4 years of mistakes, wrong turns, and emotional pain to finally come to Christ. I'm 29 now, and I was confirmed into the Catholic Church and married my wife this year. You've got time, kid. And you're starting earlier than I ever did.
319cd8 No.559354
>>559346
Think of it like this; you still have about three times the number of years you've lived on the earth.
Proverbs 3
>5 Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.
>6 In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.
448099 No.559356
>>559352
I haven't received communion in a long time, probably has been a year actually. I haven't even received on any of the holy days of obligation. Would communion help?
127d40 No.559358
>>559356
it might comfort you but don't be disappointed if it doesn't
448099 No.559359
>>559358
I'll probably need to go to confession first tbh… the priest will be disgusted when he hear my sins…
127d40 No.559360
>>559359
priests have heard everything, masturbation/lust, drugs, hatred, pretty much anything you might have done they probably would have heard it
448099 No.559363
I'm going to bed right now guys it's late where I am. Thanks for those and who posted and others who will. I'll try to update you sometime later about my ongoing thoughts…
f40199 No.559364
>>559346
We are the same age my friend. I dont cling to life that much, if i died tomorrow it wouldnt be a problem. Everything here on earth is just a game of ego.
Even though i can say that my life is a wasteland with nowhere to go and no one to be. There is really nothing for me here. Nothing but i still dont want to kill myself because only an atheist idiot would say that it ceases suffering.
Im despondent to everything, no one really cares about me but i still dont want to rot under ground with complete uncertainity of where my consciousness is going.
Im just a sponge a to pain and suffering. I know i can take it, i suggest you endure it like i do.
3e5786 No.559366
>>559363
Get back to us soon, OP. Goodnight and God bless.
79297c No.559369
>>559363
I'll be praying, don't forget us
aa0a19 No.559371
>>559356
>>559359
Do so, and receive our Lord having been properly reconciled to Him. He will be waiting for you at the altar.
May the peace of Jesus Christ be with you, brother.
2e4d4a No.559373
I'll pray for you anon. I totally feel you, I was there once last year when I too was 19. It will be a long and difficult walk my friend but prayer, church, and eventually trying to get things in check will work wonders in the end. Please don't give up, you are worth it. You are worth God's time and I'm sure you're worth someone's time on earth right now.
You are not alone my friend, many of us have been there.
60582e No.559379
>>559301
You're gonna be alright, friend. When we feel everything closing in around us, weighing us down, causing us despair and madness, we must focus on Christ's love for us and share that love with someone else. Something will change, something will happen, and you will feel life anew. Be patient.
5d4730 No.559382
No matter what trials you might be facing right now, I know that you will make it. Keep searching for God's face and reading his word, knowing that it is all for a reason. Think to all the hard times you've gone through before and how glad you are now to be through them now. These are your experiences, going through them they will become a part of you and something that no one else has whether you think of them as good or bad.
He gave you a life for a definite reason, you were given this and it's no chance or accident that we're here right now writing this. If you want to find God right now just learn his word, it will give you help as much as you let it. Don't underestimate the mind of the author of those words, but let it work in you as it is truth. Thanks for reading.
adbf4e No.559445
098f3c No.559463
>>559352
>>559346
I was 23 when I began to get my shit together after 4 miserable years also. A lot of people hit a low they think they cannot escape from, but many here have experienced the same thing and got past it. 19 is a great age to begin getting your life together and assessing where to go from here. Talking is a sign of strength too anon, seek counselling in person if your able to.
Go to confession and spend a lot of time in adoration asking the Holy Spirit to come to you and for God to show you he loves you and wait patiently. I was very nervous telling the priest everything I did but he absolved me and welcomed me back. I came to know God really does love me that way after being miserable for years and now everything has meaning. Pray the rosary and consecrate yourself to Jesus to Mary also.
1a451b No.559481
>>559346
>>559311
It is Satan who is trying to make you forfeit life brother, please don't do it, you will get through this with faith in God. Satan's control system either makes you fold and join them or suffer at their hands. You are proving yourself even now.
f287bf No.559497
Friend if you commit suicide you will go to hell.
Reading what you have said it seems that your life is not living up to your expectations/society's expectations.
Have you considered living your life to God's expectations? Do you conform your will to his? There is nothing you have said that should cause despair so I'm guessing you are being attacked by a demon or being taken away in a negative thought trap.
I am guessing you are not catholic, the issue with that is that you are probably riddled and stained with sin since your baptism thus the holy spirit does not work through you or you have ignored and rejected it. God flees from sin and is less present in those who persist in sin. Say an act of contrition, surrender your will to God and beg him to save you and he will. Go to a catholic parish and talk to the priest. You need the sacraments of confirmation penance and Eucharist if you want God to work through you.
God bless
ab9784 No.559569
>>559311
It's not too late to turn your life around. Just have faith while trying your hardest to succeed in life.
12e398 No.559615
>>559346
>>559349
When I was living with my parents in my late 20s I vowed that I would kill myself if I was living with them past 30.
I'm now 35. Still living with them (or more accurately my Mom. My Dad, who I was taking care of due to having vascular dementia passed away.) I'm graduating from college next year, have had one of my art pieces win an award, and another artwork get into a local gallery and is going to be published in a journal next year.
I've been a nowhere "loser" for many years before I got to this point where my life is finally turning around.
You're much younger. You ain't seen nothing yet, in terms of how God can turn you around.
5e9d3f No.559831
OP here, I am ok for right now…
e46611 No.559832
The Psalms are full, full of people who felt so destitute. Bear in mind and be comforted that God is with you. I recommend, strongly, that you be humble, reach out to a priest, and admit you're having some trouble. Let people help you.
79297c No.559887
>>559831
Come back any time you need to talk OP
79297c No.559904
3729cc No.559926
>>559904
Stop feeding emotional vampires
973705 No.559927
>>559901
>>559926
You’re sick and in need of repentance.
a329b8 No.559948
>>559931
There's better ways of encouraging that than "Do it faggot" Post some scripture on how to be a hardass or something and calm down.
973705 No.559949
>>559931
You need help just as much as OP does, maybe more
28a47d No.559965
>>559301
You and everyone else in the world suffer because of sin; either your sins or someone else's. God is not responsible for the sins of this world. God is love, and sin is something that he detests. He almost destroyed the Israelites multiple times in the Old Testament for example because they sinned in his presence. He understands your pain and everyone else's but you have to understand that we create this hell on Earth, and God is the only comfort for many. There are better things to come.
May God watch over you and provide you comfort for the pain that you're experiencing.
973705 No.559992
>>559960
> OP doesn't need help
I’m going to assume you’re not yet a Christian. We have all fallen short of the glory of God, and you my friend need help just as much as OP does.
0927db No.561089
>>559301
Please do not commit suicide.
78a1a8 No.567691
OP please don't do it.
Know that whatever is troubling you, we love you and God loves you.
Whatever suffering you feel is upon you right now, know that by your enduring of it you will find joy.
I know things can be rough but you've got what it takes, you have a good heart and God has a purpose for you.