fab1ff No.556389
Suicide note
Hello /christian/ you may not know me for who I’m and just think I’m another angry or sad anon which are both true, I’m writing this just to say I had some good time on here and not like /pol/ there not a lot of shareblue or there none at all on here which is why I love this community more. But to get to the point since of the vote for SSM got through and will be put in by the end of this year.
I’m considering take my own life again and I know what your think that a bit of a overreaction but for me isn’t when I was 8 months in my mother wound my brother & sister whos ages were 4 & 2 where being brutally molested by a 15 year old faggot who stole my mums clothes and used to prance around in them and always threaten to kill me and my mum if my sister ever told and for this reason for rest of my life my family has consider me to be a curse. But to continue on one day my sister try to make out with my mother which is how my worked it out that kids were being abused, she would of figured it out early but my mum worked a lot of late hours and early shifts at the hospital and my dad was always away for work for being a truck driver.Which why it took her longer to find out So this made sense to my mum because my baby brother had rash on him after my mum found out and called the police a lot of damage was already done by this faggot my brother end up get rocking baby syndrome which end up him getting a list problems down the line like severe autism, epilepsy same with my sister so what make this worst is the pedo faggot got away with it even after admitting to it and all he got was a offering of counselling not even my brother or sister got offered just him, but to make a long story short for 21 years of my life I seen my family go through cancer, death, lost 4 homes in house fire, bankruptcy lost a house to this too, suicide of others loved ones, I have no friends I been a complete fuck up of a human I suffer with agoraphobia, anthrophobia and Mysophobia and there not a lot go for me so yea shit thanks if anyone replies but I’m getting pretty drunk so sorry for the spelling errors or miss shit to make it make sense, any who I’m going see where this day takes me so thanks again
15a79f No.556393
>I’m getting pretty drunk
That's a sin, bud.
d61f30 No.556395
dfaa5b No.556400
i remember you from the last thread anon
don't die yet dammit i still need to pray for u
u are a soul for whom Jesus Christ, the Son of God, endured humiliation, rejection, abandonment, torture and death out of love
he is the Word of God, God's own knowledge of himself… his judgments are true. therefore your true value is very high indeed. God is not deceived. He did not die for the animals but for humans.
please do not spurn the Precious Blood that has been shed for u. pray for a change of heart and mind
c9f85f No.556404
Psalm 143:7-11
>7 Hear me speedily, O Lord: my spirit faileth: hide not thy face from me, lest I be like unto them that go down into the pit.
>8 Cause me to hear thy lovingkindness in the morning; for in thee do I trust: cause me to know the way wherein I should walk; for I lift up my soul unto thee.
>9 Deliver me, O Lord, from mine enemies: I flee unto thee to hide me.
>10 Teach me to do thy will; for thou art my God: thy spirit is good; lead me into the land of uprightness.
>11 Quicken me, O Lord, for thy name's sake: for thy righteousness' sake bring my soul out of trouble.
238bce No.556407
>>556393
>OP types heartfelt post asking for help/guidance
<does nothing but points out "le omg transgression"
This is your heart when you're Baptist.
26b8c0 No.556408
>>556389
Listen to this webm, it may save you life.
e2f30f No.556411
>>556389
First, know that God loves you. Think of faith not as a noun, but an action, something you do. Faith doesn't guarantee the pain will go away. Rather, that God will give you the strength to bear your cross.
When we pray for the sick, we often part that they be restored to delight in the will of God. Sometimes, in a pit, it's hard to see that God is good. Think of the psalms of illness - the psalmist often feels deserted. But read the psalms of recovery - how clear God becomes again!
One of the hardest things to accept for many converts is the unconditional love of God. God loves you, absolutely, even before repentance. Because it's what he is.
So I ask you, two things: first, the virtue of patience, and second, that you refrain from despair. You don't even need to believe everything will get better, but that your cross could become bearable.
If you can tolerate a third request, that you look up a local church and call the rectory (where the priest lives). Don't be scared, they've pretty much seen everything, and are generally willing and able to help in situations like this. If you post your city, we can probably look it up for you.
32d4cb No.556417
YouTube embed. Click thumbnail to play.
You most definently should not at all kill yourself. But if you happen to you don't automatically go to hell like some people belive, because Saul killed himslef. But also make sure your saved even if you decide not to do it.
020f51 No.556431
>>556389
Brother, don´t do it. There is more in life for you. If you have no friends, go to the nearest church. They will listen to you and offer a helping hand. We can´t hug you from the computer, so they will do that for us.
ad8f41 No.556432
Don't do it bro. You are truly loved.
57cc63 No.556459
>>556389
You are of value to God. He is still waiting for you to come back to him.
ac213e No.556473
>>556389
Brother, with the help of our Lord Jesus Christ you can overcome your difficulties. You mentioned your phobias which means you have anxiety and depression which causes atrophy to the frontal cortex of the brain, which happens to be the rational center of the brain. You are thinking of suicide because you thinking irrationally from this. This is reversible along with your phobias. Trust me I have been there. You need to realize that your thoughts are in error right now and through time, practice, and prayer you can correct them and live a fruitful life.
fab1ff No.556478
>>556400
Hi again sorry I’m a tad tipsy and forgot what I posted I’m just at rock bottom again
>>556395
Thanks anon
>>556408
That’s sweet but it’s doesn’t make me see the world better
>>556417
Thank for that clip hopefully Christ knows me
>>556431
I’m to afraid to go out there
>>556473
Okay thank you all for being so nice to me
>>556432
>>556459
>>556471
2800ea No.556494
>>556478
Suicide is a sin anon. I assure you hell is a million times worse than the worst things on this earth.
I think a good first step would be to find a group of Christian friends on the internet. People you can learn to trust, I can empathize with your plight and I know it will be hard to do that, but there is a time and place for everything, and this includes having friends.
The world is a rough place, and you have undoubtably been dealt a terrible hand, but you have to make the most of it and just remember that God is good, and that your treasures are not in this life.
fab1ff No.556515
>>556494
I know it just it's all so tiresome
7ef5b2 No.556517
>>556478
Anon from >>556473, just got home. When you get feeling a bit better in the morning after the hangover, I want you to look over some free resources I am leaving for you. These resources pertain to cognitive behavior therapy (CBT). CBT will help you work on your thoughts and phobias. It is particularly geared towards anxiety and depression. While you have indeed been through a lot, we need to get you thinking correctly again so that you can continue to be of service to the Lord. I have used both of these programs and they help, but it takes practice and persistence. God Bless you anon.
http://www.paniccenter.net/
http://depressioncenter.net/
48b84f No.556518
>and always threaten to kill me and my mum
Protect your Mom. Kill him.
55614c No.556520
>>556518
Thou shalt do no murder
020f51 No.556522
>>556478
>I’m to afraid to go out there
If you are afraid to go to them, call them so they visit you. Or simply call them just to chat. You need to have someone to raise you up when you fall.
48b84f No.556523
>>556520
It's not murder when done to protect the inocents.
fab1ff No.556538
>>556517
Yer still in out of the moment thanks
ebe7be No.556543
fab1ff No.556545
>>556522
It took me a year to grow confident enough to write on a board which you are anonymous on because I have fear of confrontation and I cry when someone calls me a idiot because I have a extremely low opinion of myself
fab1ff No.556558
>>556546
What do you mean by this
60c6dd No.556562
>>556389
Killing yourself over the SSM vote is a dumb reason to do it. Don't even use it.
I'd say more, but what of what I say will change your thoughts. You need to get help, dude, you need significant counselling. I hope you're getting some.
002adc No.556565
>>556545
<3
Be my gf(gf) please and lets grow togerther
fab1ff No.556571
>>556565
Sorry anon I’m dude
020f51 No.556585
>>556545
Friend, If it take another year for you to have courage to go to a church, then I won´t pressure you. But keep the idea in mind and don´t forget to try. I believe it will help you greatly.
dc03f5 No.556594
WTF? Where do you live bro? This is some crazy shit, like something out of an arthouse flick.
e2f30f No.556601
>>556545
Let me tell you a story. Ahab became king of Israel, and married a very evil queen, and they both left worship of the true God and worshipped idols.
Elijah predicted a drought. It caused major problems for Ahab, and he actually wants to kill Elijah and any other prophets of God. After a while, Elijah thought he was the last priest of God left. One day, Elijah goes to the King, and challenges him to a showdown, all the idol priests vs Elijah, trying to call down fire to accept a burnt offering.
Long story short, God accepts Elijah's offering and all the priests of baal are killed. Elijah, though, is worn out, and the evil queen is still after him, and he thinks he's the last true priest left. He can't go on. And so he wanders out into the desert to die.
But God isn't done with him! An angel says "Get up and eat, otherwise the journey will be too much for you!" God wants him to keep going. And he eats and regains his strength.
And in the desert, he meets God, who has basically 2 messages: there are other true priests still alive, and I have a great task for you.
Maybe those messages are relevant in this case too.
fab1ff No.556608
>>556594
I live in Australia the state was NSW
e3ba0b No.556609
I can't say I really understand what you're going through, but hang in there dude.
fab1ff No.556610
fab1ff No.556611
>>556609
Thanks I’m trying
1b6f60 No.556614
>>556558
stop posting faggot cartoons
fab1ff No.556617
>>556601
Thank for this, ironically my brother name Elijah
fab1ff No.556621
fab1ff No.556630
>>556628
I’m a dude anon and I’m not becoming a trap for you
d92167 No.556632
>>556478
I'll pray for you. Suicide is not the answer, speak out against what is going on. Do something with your life. Conquer your past in the present so you can claim your future.
fab1ff No.556633
>>556632
Very inspirational words
fab1ff No.556683
>>556648
That not funny anon that just sick and if I ever find you I’ll bash your fucking skull in
(USER WAS WARNED FOR THIS POST) fab1ff No.556720
>>556712
Where you live address, postal ,state ,country ,name because I’ll do it
eccf0a No.556724
>>556720
I didn't realize why you were so upset until reading the OP. I was actually referring to the posts talking about becoming a trap alongside the spoilered image and a few of the other posts. I'll delete my other posts out of shame now. Please forgive anon.
fab1ff No.556727
>>556724
You just really angered me anon I hope you are telling the truth because Child rape isn’t funny
002adc No.556728
>>556571
No you are not. You act like an effeminate male(girl)
eccf0a No.556730
>>556727
I am and you're right that it's not. It didn't even cross my mind what thread I was in.
fab1ff No.556733
>>556728
I’m not becoming a trap anon I’m just a very broken human who can’t handle a simple insult or the matter of world without breaking
fab1ff No.556735
fab1ff No.556736
>>556730
I believe you I just thought you were someone else from another page who just want to make fun of someone for being pathetic
bef0e4 No.556796
Ring up a catholic priest right now anon. If you are going to die at least go to heaven not hell. Details are on parish websites
002adc No.556800
>>556733
OwO c-cute tbh …are you 15
(USER WAS STONED FOR THIS POST) fab1ff No.556814
>>556800
No I said I was 21 didn’t you read my post ?
cd47ec No.556872
>>556389
Sorry anon, this is a tragedy. You truely have lived the worst life I've ever heard.
Before you go: deal with the dickhead. May as well make life a bit better just before you finish it. Second, if you're intent on suicide, do it by a purpose of good, e.g. be a sort of martyr. Go to North Korea and prosthelytize till they execute you, or go fight in the frontlines against ISIS till you're dead. I can't stop you from suicide anon, but there are better and worse ways to do it.
7ba646 No.556882
Your family doesn't need another suicide to top off all that. Forget yourself for a moment and really think hard about what that's going to do to them.
66924f No.556894
>>556389
If you plan to kill yourself, make sure to think about how you would feel if you destroyed some precious possession of yours. You'd likely feel sadness and regret afterwards. Why would taking your own life be any different?
You will be committing self-murder and the Lord doesn't want you to do such a thing because you are not yours to destroy, but the Lord's. Christians are bought with the price of Jesus' blood on the cross. You are not yours. Please don't commit this sin against God and yourself.
c8433d No.556895
>posting on /christian/ about how you're about to masturbate
>posting on /christian/ about how you're about to have gay sex
>posting on /christian/ about how you're about to get drunk
>posting on /christian/ about how you're about to shoot somebody
<go away, we don't need reprobates here
>posting on /christian/ about how you're about to kill yourself
<aw, man, don't do that, we love you :(
This place is crippled with modernism.
Hey, OP. We don't need reprobates here. No one is going to miss you, but God will eternally condemn you. Read the Bible and go to church instead of sinposting.
4cb62d No.556897
>>556895
Publicly disavow this anon. If you think you're getting in based on your own righteousness, you misunderstand the gospel.
c8433d No.556904
>>556897
Disavow what? That suicide is a capital sin? That capital sins condemn you? No thanks.
>If you think you're getting in based on your own righteousness, you misunderstand the gospel.
Nowhere did I imply this.
1b6f60 No.556984
>>556800
faggot
(USER WAS WARNED FOR THIS POST) 76c541 No.556995
>>556608
>Australia
That explains everything.
291175 No.557116
>>556389
Suicide is a sin but being slain in the process of bringing God's justice to sodomites is not, it makes you a Holy Warrior.
Do I need to spell it out any clearer for you?
7ef5b2 No.557125
>>557114
You don't belong here
fab1ff No.557139
>>556894
>>556882
>>556872
Thanks for your comment, I was just at a low point again I had thoughts like the faggot got away and is going to marry another fag and adopted kids to fuck and that just got to me ,but my goal is to sort my self out and get better
d55da0 No.557175
>>556389
Hey before you off yourself, you ever tried a cuban torta?
Now I know you don't want to live right now, and your motivation is low to do anything.
But these are some damned good tortas.
c8433d No.557196
>>557175
>talking about this
>right when the Nativity Fast begins
darned papists
c28f85 No.557197
>>557196
>Not being on the Old Calendar
Get on my level
c8433d No.557201
>>557197
>being on the Old Calendar
darned schismatics
d55da0 No.557215
>>557175
Suicide is a sin, regardless of whether he should be fasting he may as well try the torta before he dies.
He can try the beef/chorizo tacos (my mom adds weenies + bacon ) as well.
There's just so many good things to try and do before you end it all. You know?
60ac3c No.557435
I don’t know if I can help you
But I’ll try
Never give up my friend, life will continue to throw it’s worse at you. Stand tall for the lord, if you are unable to stand tall then lean on the lord for support, if you are unable to stand for the lord or lean on the lord, then wrap your arms around the lord and hang on until you are able to stand.
God has always been with you and will always be with you. To him you must pray, cry, talk, and vent.
I’m so sorry and I wish I could do more than just ramble, read the book of job please
Hang in there my friend
e9bff7 No.557458
>>557201
are you memeing or what?
5fb8b3 No.557459
>>557458
Old Calender can be schismatic if you're part of one of those TrueGenuineRealOrthodx(TM) groups
e9bff7 No.557461
>>557459
>can
>if
they schismatic bc they're true genuine etc. NOT bc of the old calender though right
5fb8b3 No.557467
>>557461
Yeah, they're only in schism because they broke off once the mainstream church started using the new calendar. There are still canonical groups that use the old calendar.
57cc63 No.557487
>>556895
The second one is not the same as all the others, being a reprobate beast is worse.