So, 2 years ago when I did nofap, I realized that I really didn't stutter as much and was able to communicate with much more confidence and bravado. It also helped me lose a lot of weight (which I've unfortunately gained back because I quit nofap AND ketosis, 75lbs) my testosterone skyrocketed due to all the meat, onions, seafood and other enhancing meals I've eaten, and my energy levels were through the roof.
I notice that when I DO masturbate, I tend to feel more awkward and anxious the majority of the time, even during the next day. I seldom feel normal again after masturbation, I may have a chemical imbalance.
Though, take note, I have ADHD so that makes some sense to me about re-wiring my brain; speaking of ADHD, nofap is harder for me compared to others, but I've managed to do it at least, since when I masturbate, I tend to try to "Drain" myself, meaning that fapping once doesn't help at all, and I NEED to masturbate until I can't get erect. I've done this since I was 9, which I feel might have hindered my development and might have contributed to my ADHD, I did used to eat a lot of junk as well and no foods with healthy androgen and testosterone inhibitors, I grew up with a single mother and let me tell you, she was NOT a nutritionist in the slightest. I became emasculated, very hairy, strangely enough.
It truly, honestly did take a huge fucking toll on my self confidence, to the point that when I try to do something productive, I hate myself, get anxious, cringe, wince, and quit like a beta– this could be anything from martial arts, drawing, cooking, programming, basically anything extracurricular, my brain goes haywire and I INSTANTLY go into a state of depersonalization and lose track of everything, it all becomes a huge fucking blur and I go into a blank. It's really done a number on me in learning useful skills and networking, and knocked me down the socioeconomic ladder.
I found a partner that I'll be meeting soon, so sexual intercourse might help mitigate any type of "Guilt" (Read: Frustration and chemical imbalances) in terms of how my body takes climaxing.
Using a fleshlight slowly and in a good satisfying, thorough pattern, thrusting my hips even, insteadPost too long. Click here to view the full text.
