/v/ - Video Games

As as kid, I used to play games the instant I got them. Now with new games, I usually wait a bit before playing them. I can't really explain why. But usually when I do finally start it up, I only play that game until I finish it. It's quite weird. There are many VN's in my backlog in particular I bought but haven't begun yet.

Another strange thing, hopefully isn't too strange, is that with some games, usually older ones, I play it just a little bit, and if I dislike it, I put it down for a year or even more sometimes, but when I finally pick it back up, I love the hell out of it. This is what happened to me with Fallout 1, 2, STALKER, and a few others that I can't remember at the moment.

This other weird habit is one I still have to this day. I bought and played Pikmin 1 and 2 as a kid but still haven't finished either to completion, and I attribute that fact entirely to my fear of losing Pikmin in the field of war. It's almost a crippling sensation whenever I approach a cave or dungeon. I don't want to lose a single pikmin and I feel like shit when one dies - more so when I make a wrong move and lose tens of them.

This also happens to me whenever I try to pick up Warcraft 3. I haven't tried in a while so I'll try again soon, but what always happens is I am tense and stressed in every mission and completing a mission gives me the biggest fucking feeling of relief ever. It's not like I'm bad at either game. Why, I even played on the harder difficulty and have yet to fail a single mission. I guess I'm just scared that I will lose for the first time and, considering how long some missions take to complete, it will end up being a huge waste of time.

I'll feel a little bit more relaxed about this if someone else tells me they have a similar problem.

Short arcade games have progressively displaced more and more of my vidya time to the point where it's about 80% now. I've always preferring mastering my games before I move on to new ones, and arcade games are vastly more rewarding and satisfying to master.

>>16557023

>just play the same few games I've beaten a hundred times

I know that feel.

I just play every game from before the 7th Generation.

I used to play vidya a lot and get excited about new releases. Then as I grew up, I slowly realized that I hate myself and what I've become, and I only defaulted to video games and movies as a hobby because I mistakenly considered myself incapable of doing any physically active hobby. I was content to live out my fantasies in virtual form instead of working for them in real life… until I wasn't anymore. Now I'm a fat loser with nothing to show for my three decades of life. I don't enjoy video games anymore. I don't enjoy movies. Every time I sit on the couch and look at my TV I feel deep guilt that I'm wasting the rest of my life. My game shelf and my collection of figures sickens me, but at the same time looking at it and thinking about simpler times when I could just enjoy a game is one of the only things that makes me feel joy. This whole time I could have been working towards doing awesome things for real, actually becoming the type of person who would be a game protagonist, instead of pretending to do them on a screen and being a slave to the whims of the developers supplying my fix. But because I had MILD asthma and exercise was uncomfortable, I lied to myself that vidya was the best I could get. I've since realized that I can exercise without dying, but I'm now so obese that it would take at least three years of heavy dieting and working out, and tens of thousands of dollars in cosmetic surgery, to return me to a normal human baseline of physical fitness. And I haven't shunned socialization my whole life because of autism, I kept to myself because deep down I was ashamed of me, and didn't want to force other people to look at my hideous form. But regardless, I've got less social experience as a full grown adult than most highschoolers. Every time I make up my mind to go to the gym and turn everything around, I'm assaulted with doubt that there's no point in trying because I'm too late and I already missed all the good parts of life, and I should just quietly pass on without bothering anyone.

If you ever have kids, force sports on them until they enjoy it. Don't let them give up. Keep trying new ones until something clicks. Don't sit back and watch them become me. Video games were merely a symptom of my sloth, they didn't directly cause it. But they are inferior to real experiences in every way and always will be. It will be too late when you realize it.

>>16557567

>you're probably just depressed and think the grass is greener on the other side when it's not

It's not that I desire to be a party animal or an instagram whore or to have a huge friend group and be loved by everyone, I just realized that almost every social interaction really boils down to how you look, and you get along better at everything if you're not a fat lazy fuck. If you're handsome, you can be a fucking psychopath and people will still either be neutral towards you, or enjoy your presence until you literally murder them, and even then you'd have a few crazy admirers. Anything a hot person does is cool or quirky or shows that they're alpha and don't give a fuck what anyone thinks. If you're me, everything you do is creepy or weird no matter how tame it is. I've gotten shit on for wearing shorts, wearing pants, having a beard, not having a beard, having short hair, having long hair, driving a shitbox, driving a sports car. I have to hide my powerlevel so much just to avoid additional ridicule, that I have no personality at all. But fit guys can say they're into magical girl anime and their normalfag followers will start watching clips of it on youtube at their command. Looks affect everything. I just want to be able to walk down the street and know that people aren't disgusted when they see me.

>>16557553

>Physical activity is pain, discomfort, and rarely fails to be boring as well. No enjoyment, only suffering.

My brother has all the same interests as me but also does cross country running, and he's just graduated highschool as an absolute knockout with a german exchange student GF and a large group of friends who support each other in a way I've never personally experienced. My parents used to say he was my clone, and now I know what I could have been if I was active instead of sedentary. He seems to enjoy it and describes running as a high. Obviously exercise is suffering if you're fat, because every single movement is like lifting weights. But imagine being completely unencumbered.

>>16557592

Not a huge loss since I'm still smarter than almost everyone I interact with on a daily basis. I live in a redneck shithole, I'm not trying to compete with wall street types.

>it's another boohoo I am like so le depressed blogposting thread

See you all on friday.

>>16557023

>just play the same few games I've beaten a hundred times

ha ha ha, you mean to tell me I should do yet ANOTHER stalker playthrough? Don't mind if I do.

I used to play WoW

now I'm completely clean and I have been clearing my backlog of PC games and indies and I'm having a blast

Remember folks. MMO genre is a bluepill and youre better off without it. Fuck WoW, fuck blizzard, quit that shit and enjoy real videogames.

I've become absolutely cynical when it comes to new releases. I used to be excited, mostly due to age. I certainly do not hate vidya, I still play a lot of games but they're all older than 5 years, or more generally 10.

>>16557050

>I barely even play videogames anymore

I came here to post this.

>For some reason, I find it extremely addictive watching moronic youtube videos. Like, reaction videos, meme compilations, all that shit. I don't enjoy them at all, but I feel an urge to keep clicking them.

I also do that, but instead of clickbait I waste my time watching lectures, seminars, podcasts or literally anything that involves scientific exposure and personal testimonies.

>All these faggots saying they don't even play games anymore

Take your retarded asses to resetera if you want to sit around bitching about a hobby you don't even enjoy.

>>16557023

The feel is gone.

>No it won't be Cyberpunk 2077.

>No it won't be Master Chief Collection. Your friends you used to play Halo with are long out of the picture.

>Maybe I'll try out the new Kerbal DLC. Oh look everything you could do is posted online already but 100 times better and well implemented.

Social Media and its consequences have been a disaster for the human race.

>>16558376

You're a big boy now. You have to eat your vegetables and exercise. Not everything in life feels good. Lift, faggot.

>>16557023

My habits and tastes haven't changed too much, save for a few little things.

<used to be a ragey tryhard faggot, unironically used 1337speak in the 90s in quake, ut and starcraft, excluded everyone but my clan members

>now just gravitate towards pve/co-op games, and like to include as many friends as possible

<always rented new games every other day from blockbuster, so i got it drilled into me early on what separates good games from shit ones

>i can still pick up on familiar patterns and signs when a game will be absolute garbage

<played to win

>plays for fun

<used to be excited and optimistic about the future of video games, would be excited for the day when games would rival blockbuster movies

>hates how corporate the gaming sphere has become, gravitates towards indies or whatever has enjoyable, non-formulaic gameplay

<was a proud GAMER GEEK DUDE, with a pc tower that looked like some 2fast2furious shit, it suited my JNCOs and my frosted tips

>realizes that anyone who self-identifies as a gamer is a complete faggot, and i cringe at how unbearable i must have been to be around

<used to play about 6-8 hours a day around school and sleep

>still play about 6-8 hours a day around work and sleep

<used to pine for the days of having a gf who plays and likes the same games as me

>absolutely hate the fact that my gf plays and likes the same games as me, and she is a min-maxing autist who makes every game unfun

<used to wear video games on my sleeve, would always talk about them to whoever would listen

>i've hidden my enjoyment for video games under three layers of obfuscation, such as an interest in sports teams, rally racing, and netflix shows. i have no real interest in any of these things, they're just deflective alibis to cover for my shameful secret.

<used to fantasize about working so i could buy all the vidya games

>now work, all of my leftover money is invested into my pc so i can make the games i already play, run and look even better

Always had problems with game retention ever since being a wee bab, barely ever finished shit unless something in it hooked me(generally gameplay, satisfying loop helps). Didn't change whatsoever.

Game-wise also almost no changes, just same blend of military shit and driving sims, though that did get a small addition of engineering/constructor games lately as they picked up. Sometimes an RPG, but I generally just keep replaying New Vegas and sometimes Morrowind.

And a crippling War Thunder addiction, but that's neither here nor there. Not my fault it's the only good simcade tank game on the market.

>>16557704

>Female in the zone

>too tired of cutscenes, slow starts, tutorials and samey forced stories to play most singleplayer games again

>lost interest on multiplayer games since BF2's shutdown and the retarded e-celeb TF2 random crit debate

>can't talk about what few favorite games and stuff i have left in here anymore, because i get called a hipster nostalgiafag contrarian or some shit and it's too full of ironic depressing generals about normalfag modern trash