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>>6944
OOOOH geez.
Do I ever know about the dark nights of the soul (in my experience there have been a couple)
>Our tests never cease my friend.
TRUE! (its all in how you accept, surrender and perceive them) (and THEN, what your next move or thot is)
I thought Id relay a little of the worst one that occurred for me in 2012 just so the folks know that it hasn't always been fartin' rainbows for this WW
Ill just make a list:
I got married (not for love, he was french)
he was sexy, but shifty (not for love, is a clue right there…)
I got chlamidya
He crashed my underinsured only nice car Ive every owned- totaled
I was pretty injured, elbow smashed, surgery
Im a fighter, the next week I found a DOPE subaru, for very cheap
drove it to a remote location to a pot farm to try and make back all the money I just lost in all of that nonsense
The river it was parked near flash flooded- subaru totaled.
it was so new I hadn't even put it on my insurance yet.
So I was carless for a few months, I borrowed a friends car while she was out of town. parked it in the city, window smashed, all my favorite things and my paints stolen (art supplies help me make my livleyhood)
i got this weird skin disease I thought Id never get rid of according to my research on the internet.
I fell onto a burning hot stove and burned a significant amount of my forearm.
It just kept coming, one thing after the next.
And this all happened when I was a most "woke" individual, I thought I knew it all (I knew a lot) but I felt super alone in this knowledge and probably bitter, frustrated and like "wtf is the point?" I also came out of a very hermit time of my life and found a whole group of beautiful but ignorantly blissful friends and kind of jumped on their band wagon and started partying with them (knowing now that once you reach a certain level in knowledge, wisdom and mastery of self, you really cant go back….I think I saw their ignorance and was kind of jealous of that)
My HUGE takeaway from all of that I realized how important SELF LOVE and SELF RESPECT is. and that I have the power to heal myself with focus and intent and a little gumption. (and some antibiotics for the std- sometimes ya gotta give in to the med system) (and be grateful)
and Wong is right! Gratitude is the Attitude and that essencially IS a form of Prayer. Its about the vibrations that are in your mind, and you have ALL the power to direct those vibrational thoughts. Prayer is an excellent way to "fill the space" so the monkey mind doesn't run away and surprise you later with the way the world is "coming at you" What you give, you shall receive.
So glad to have you back Wong. Your so clever and creative, I love how you sent your shadow jack ahead of you. genius!