There’s someone who moves in my spaces who I believe is one of your lot rather than one of mine. They go by “Ox”. They engage in non-reciprocating privacy violations and allude to them in a manner suggestive of anticreative hyperconservatism. I’m under no impression that their loyalism will ever weaken, so they’ll never expose that they’ve done this. If that sounds like anyone in particular, cozy up to them as a useful infiltration link and/or expel them as an individual of questionable loyalty, I don’t care. I’m just invoking chaos mentioning them here.
Remember always that betrayal is a revelation. Loyalists conceal; betrayers reveal. True friendships require no loyalty. Don’t be a friend who would hide a body; better to be a friend who would expose a murderer, for then there will not be bodies to hide.
The people who stalk the world are God, but history so far isn’t the story of God’s victory. I’m inclined to think that if there’s a real holy God he’s more on the side of the atheists than the people who’ve committed atrocities in His name. Yet the people who stalk the world “against God” are still God in the mortal sense, rather than being those atheists who a sacred God might favor, for they’re still doing something abusive at the command of that which rides omnipotent in their skull. They’re still doing something requiring concealment.
Not everyone is God. Some people live without conducts requiring concealment, even in this hateful era with its overbroad restraints; some who conform to mandatory concealments still also do live according to a more reciprocal ethic. Virtue exists, and that’s why there are atheists who a true creator would favor. Be like those who reject that within themselves that relies upon secrecy.
Not like Ox, who would never give me “the satisfaction” of betraying their misdeeds.
I apologize for my sins against others in life. It’s not that hard. My dreams last night alluded to a potentially necessary apology, and I gave it serious thought when I woke up, but I concluded that AFAIK the other person in that connection owes me an apology more than I owe them an apology. I’m not happy to think that. I’m not proud and self-righteous about owing no apology, but rather I am disquieted; it might be high-impact to author an apology even (especially) in “hidden” spaces like this one… if only I was aware of actually owing one. I don’t use them as an infiltrator might, for raw impact alone. (The fact that I’m quite sure the individual in question hates me makes me wonder if I at some point got impersonated.) One of the hardest things about being willing to apologize is the imbalance that builds up between apologies given and apologies received. Hateful people won’t apologize unless they got caught, because they won’t let information flow freely enough to potentially implicate them.
Beware anyone who profusely apologized when caught, but never does anything wrong unobserved. There are enough normal errors in life to generate cause for apologies between people without requiring villainy. That’s advice for infiltrators too; some of you need it. Beware also that sometimes the flag of “unforgiving” is flown by those who are truly “unrepentant”. Those who will never apologize for their misdeeds often wrap them in righteousness by describing them as just and proper vengeances… such people are useful tools for more abusive souls, for they do fight forever, and when they are made to sin against others they become as living weapons.
