Does anyone else have this problem? I've had sex a lot more than your average 20 year old, regularly in relationships since 15 should have married the first one I know but I didn't have a father who taught me morals, I had to learn the hard way. For this reason I'm struggling now it's looking like it might be months or years before I have sex again.
Whenever I get to around 14 days of nofap, it's like my brain is in total beast mode, and I find myself seeking sex constantly, like the rational side of my brain is just overpowered by hormones. How do I push through without falling to the degeneracy of casual sex?
I'm attractive and experienced enough to be able to find someone to fuck if I really try, and I'm almost in a trance like state where I don't realize what I'm doing until I've had my orgasm inside her and come back to a more rational state. This has stopped my semen retention spree several times now. I got a gf for a while off the back of this rampant horniness before realising what I was doing (objectively she wasn't right for me long term). Am I a sex addict? I find it pretty easy to not look at porn but the temptation to go to a club and pull someone is fucking strong when I'm just sitting with a hard dick on a Friday night trying to concentrate on a book or something.
All I want is a stable and loving relationship but I think I've trained my brain to see sex as a starting point for that. I want to be chaste now until I find a wife but I know in a few weeks I'll be so wound up that I'll jump on any opportunity, no matter how much I discipline myself now. Also the reality that finding a wife material might take years kind of contributes to the "fuck it, let's fuck" attitude when I'm super horny.
Faith and patience are what's required, but my brain loses the ability to think rationally after a while of nofap. I think the problem is knowing pussy is available if I try for it. I need a way to stop my animalistic, horny self wanting to fulfil its animal instincts I guess. Just thought I'd post and see if any anons have the same issues/have overcome this.
Pic related is something that's helping.