GF and I are incel/virgin. It's been 3 years and the plan is to not even kiss till marriage.
She gets upset anytime I instigate any hand or foot play but has little inhibitions herself until it's clear I'm enjoying it.
She has acted suspiciously on several occasions and I have always trusted her but sometimes when a friend gets too familiar I start wonder.
Long story short I bottle all my sexual frustration by fapping. Otherwise I can go weeks with no urges. I don't know if I'm a cuck for real but porn definitely is, and it makes me sick.