>>10561
You are trying to beat an addiction. Your emotions are going to be a rollercoaster.
Now you sit there completely blackpilled.
First thing to do is to take a step back: you're here, so you are better than 95% of the population.
Second: analyze: what are the circumstances you relapse under? Why do you think you relapse? Be honest with yourself.
Third: Devise a way to stop relapsing. Block those sites in your router, turn off the hot water. It may seem mechanical, but it is necessary.
Even if you only fap every second day, that is a change from 365 faps to 182 faps. Keep your eyes on the long term. It will seem that the world throws an insurmountable amount of filth towards you, but the only acceptable response is an iron will of defense. You are going to make it.