/mde/ - MILLION DOLLAR EXTREME

I made the music and the music video.

If you can figure out where the sample in the beginning is from you are a true MDE fan.

https://youtu.be/P8GiOipSyhk

so funchurch released a new 30-minute video consisting entirely of graphics and bumpers, and it's absolutely spectacular. all of it is miles better than anything I've ever done, or could ever hope to achieve. I've been wanting to be part of it ever since I found out it existed but it's glaringly apparent that I'm just not good enough. everything I make is just plain, uninspiring garbage that would've been passable if I was a teenager but is just sad and embarrassing now. I have no imagination, everything I make is essentially a mediocre-at-best MDE ripoff that looks like it was made in movie maker.I have absolutely no motivation or self-discipline to improve because, let's face it, what's the point? it'd be too little too late. It's happening NOW, and I'm not ready. I've missed the boat, and no amount of swimming after it will ever catch me up. An entire movement of the kind of media I've always dreamed of, and it's passing me by before my eyes.

I have two options: give up entirely, drug myself beyond self-awareness so I don't have to deal with what a failure I am and fantasize about what could have been if I wasn't such a lazy incompetent sack of shit -or- pick up my mouse and shit out some godawful garbage "look look! I can do it too! c-can I sit with you guys now?" piece of piss that looks and sounds like it was made by a 14-year-old in macromedia flash MX.

I wish I could enjoy fun church and all the amazing, mind-blowing content these brilliant talented people are putting out, but all it does is remind me what an incompetent waste of space I am. The only reason I am still alive is because I don't have the balls to take responsibility and kill myself.

any anons feel the same way or is it just me

>>10394

At least you're self aware. I've seen MDE ripoff channels that don't seem to realize they're an MDE ripoff.

I'd say focus on finding your own voice in whatever you're doing. If your goal is to conform as best you can to an already popular aesthetic and get recognition from the successful people in that field, you're setting yourself up for disappointment. You'll be chasing that carrot forever and never get to a point where you feel like you've caught it. Make a youtube channel or instagram or something and experiment with different things. Make stuff that you find funny or interesting. The kind of stuff you'd want to see. That's the only thing that will make you work hard at it, and persevere through the months of no one watching or liking your stuff.

I've been following this weird channel for a few months now: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCc3imX7CJHRymxnH7sBvG2w/videos

It's clear the guy enjoys making what he makes, because if he didn't he's surely have given up by now. He experiences little success in terms of view counts, but occasionally one will break through and get over 200 views. He also has a tiny little community of people who comment on his stuff. If he keeps at this he'll probably get enough people that it will reach a critical mass and put him over the edge into the "successful small channel" zone. If he uploaded more frequently he might see success sooner, but it seems like this is just a little creative outlet for him and he's not really trying to build a brand or anything.

>>10394

Start now. It's never too late to integrate and evolve with it. It' sounds like you probably have some ideas you want to express that maybe working with other people would help? I feel the same in many ways, but you can't just give up. Shit nigga, i'd be open to hearing what you want to make.

>>10394

Sam started comedy when, around 2005? It wasn't until 2012/2013 before he got any kind of real fanbase and he didn't hit the mainstream until 2016.

If you're giving up this easily you're just letting yourself down, Sam spent over a decade trying to make it big and even when it fell he still went out and did more shit. Comedy is cutthroat and it has no pity for people with zero perseverance.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZCnT30MT--M

what tools do you use anyways? i find the art fascinating, share some tips

>>10422

https://celebrity-leaks.net/ben-shapiros-sister-abigail-shapiro-leaked-nudes/

>>10490

not her 100%

>>10394

that fun church stuff sucks and in terms of aesthetics is extremely derivative of MDE.

Not to say MDE doesn't take from other sources either like that Elliot Earls dude Sam's mentioned or other lo-fi wierdo freakshow shit that came before it like Wonder Showzen but MDE brings a lot of new shit to the table AND does it beautifully/brilliantly to the point of it seeming effortless. This fun church channel is dog shit and doesn't even look good, I'm ashamed for you that you want to work with these hacks.

Anyway it's perfectly normal to feel how you do when you want to make something, they pain you feel is a good thing, it means you have passion and drive, at the moment you lack creative direction and that's something you need to find.

This guy said it right >>10405

>If your goal is to conform as best you can to an already popular aesthetic and get recognition from the successful people in that field, you're setting yourself up for disappointment. You'll be chasing that carrot forever and never get to a point where you feel like you've caught it.

You're never too old to create dude, dedicated 2 hours minimum of each day to art production or kill yourself!

>>10394

Dude you are talented.

Let's collab broooo insta me @hallowedbeats