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I think these internal conflicts are common.
You're fighting against your own libido. Part of you is telling you that you want to be dominated by this girl, part of you is telling you you want to fight against her and earn your freedom because she's restricting it and putting you down. No matter what you choose to do you're probably going to be influenced by your sexual desires.
I think of spiders when I think of this conflict, how some species willingly allow themselves to be eaten in order to mate with their female counterparts. It sounds absolutely insane to people, like why would you let yourself be eaten? It will kill you, how could that possibly be worth a few minutes of pleasure? But I think size fetishists can relate to this more. It's only a few minutes of pleasure, but it's inconceivable, overwhelming pleasure, your body is telling you that it's worth dying for even if you don't want to die.