Ok friends what do you think about me?
>Fantasied about/dreamed about being a girl as a young child, like 6 y/o.
>Never told anyone about it, felt it shameful/embarrassing
>Once remember thinking "if all my family died I'd have a sex change" (Kid logic right?)
Fast forward to 12 y/o.
>First time I ever masturbated was by accident, while attempting to follow a tucking youtube video
>Had been trying to tuck for a while (I think)
>Kept on masturbating
>Discover Literotica (trans stories) and eventually Fictionmania
>Forced fem ect...
>Always mentally placed myself in the position of being feminized.
>Write it off as a fetish
Fast forward to 15
>Kind of come to the conclusion I'm trans (not exactly sure why)
>tell parents at 16
>get on blockers
>Estrogen once I was 18
I'm still 18 and I still have AGP feelings. I feel Significant dysphoria surrounding my face/body, body hair ect... Some genital dysphoria but less.
I used to be exclusively attracted to girls, but imagined myself in a female position (sexually)
Since starting HRT I feel like attracted to guys more and less so to girls, but some attraction to both.
Some internalized homophobia surrounding imaging myself with a girl I think
Also extremely sexually submissive (can't really see myself topping anyone)
Want SRS eventually, but FFS more
What the fuck am I... anyone got any incite...