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I have a younger brother.

We've never really gotten along.

He was always more comfortable with conformity than I; but, in his defense, most people are.

It started with him acting like a little tattle-tale, just as most conformity-enforcers start out. Now he is a full-grown adult, with his own teenage daughter, but my trust and respect levels have not improved in relation to him, and we rarely talk – certainly not about anything except superficial stuff like the weather.

Speaking of respect, it is no secret that `'just-Kiss-It'` often doesn't respect his own viewpoint enough, nor does he always show respect for the viewpoint of others.

Our judgment of others often makes them relate to us in ways that that are more reactionary than authentic.

When I try to lessen this lack of respect between my brother and I, I find that my own judgment gets in the way of me respecting him just as much as his judgment of me gets in the way of him respecting me! Like my parents, he does not respect my lack of conformity, and my refusal to accept Jesus as my Lord and Personal Slaver. I am, therefore, going to burn in hell forever anyway, in his eyes, so there is really no need to get to know someone who is such a short-timer in his eternal life in Heaven with Jesus. This is actually how my parents think too, and it is actually how all Christians think, deep down. At least that is how us non-Christians think you Christians think!

So,Judgment.Everybody does it. Nobody likes it. Most react to it. Look how I reacted to Johnny Neptune yesterday! In my defense, his actions lately have been those of a petulant child throwing a temper tantrum, and his judments are as dangerous as those of most Trump-haters nowadays. They actually hate Trump and hate humans so much that they want everyone to suffer and die needlessly, because they hate Trump. Wow. Dangerous like I said like I judge them to be. It is dangerous to let hate be your only guide and constant companion. It is dangerous to over-shelter oneself, to stay in whirlpools of poison that rarely wash clean, or to welcome slavery in any form especially authoritarianism, totalitarianism, or really any of the other isms. What we hate in another, however, is often what we hate in ourselves. Other people can see it, but we seem blind to our own hypocrisy. I mean, pretty much anyone would equate the ego of Johnny Neptune and Donald Trump. They're practically two peas in a pod! It's one of my least favorite things about Trump, and one of my least favorite things about Johnny Neptune that whole "Persona" thing. Ego really sucks, and it sucks on everyone. But that's just my judgment; and like I said, the recipient of judgment is rarely welcoming of it, so I doubt my judgment will have a positive effect on this, or any other relationship. And relationships are all there is! Johnny Neptune does not exist any more than `'Just-Kiss-It'` exists, but their relationship exists, just as much as my relationship exists with my brother, but neither of us actually exists, except in relation to "other", but I digress…

I mentioned that I feel the judgment of my family, most Christians, and most people who place themselves in positions of Authority over me; and I sometimes react to that judgment. Reactionary behavior, however, is not authentic. Oftentimes people do not want you to act authentically. They want you to react, so they can deal with you on the same level they always have – with them better than you, in their judgment, and you needing to see things more clearly from their viewpoint before they will even give your viewpoint the time of day!

If you do not see things my way, then you are obviously blind.

My brother has a teenage daughter, an only child, who he has kept completely sheltered from the world, because "The World is Evil, mmmkay?" She knows nothing except the Christardery she has been fed, and she has always been filled with fear, anxiety, and treated like she has numerous mental problems. They feed her full of drugs and have convinced her that she suffers from a debilitating mental problem that will never allow her to have a normal life. She is literally as normal as any other human; other than having to deal with over-sheltering parents with strange beliefs, who limit her contact with the outside world. I have always judged his parenting as harshly as he has judged mine, and very little respect regarding parenting has ever transpired between us. But this is getting ridiculous!Judgment Incoming…His daughter has not left the house since last year! Why? Coronavirus maybe? Fuck no!She is literally afraid that someone will kidnap her!I judge that as irresponsible parenting. To coddle a phobia like that is absolutely evil, in my book. For why? To make her more dependent? I know authority figures love''' that for their little slaves to be more dependent on them but I digress, again… It's kinda what I do…

Anyway, I judge. I think that over-sheltering is dangerous. I think that cultivating fear in others is as dangerous as cultivating hate. I think that it is difficult to express any of my thoughts because the judgment of others often does not allow anything like communication to ever take place. So here I am, a voice in the wilderness that is never heard, just like Killcen; attacked for saying anything at all, attacked for being authentic, attacked for having different views, attacked for not conforming but I am nothing but the Wind in the Willows, an interaction nothing more… Relationships between moving points always change; and the point is always changing…

What was the point of this thread anyway?