>>142877
Thanks OP. We're all going to make it.
>>143572
What this guy >>143590 said.
I spent the last few years fighting (or, to be more precise, procrastinating in the fight) against depression. I was miserable, and angry, and bitter, and I had this little voice in the back of my head discouraging me all the time, and I'd often hark back to the past, thinking how it used to be so much better. The sky was actually blue then, you know? Not this dour metallic grey.
Then I started working out again. Started eating better. Did the conscious decision to be a better person. To do something that would take me out of my comfort zone. Do something that I always wanted to do, but was too embarrassed to do it. For a time, it was amazing.
Months passed. The initial rush the "changes" bought slowed down. It seemed that nothing really changed. Was it all in vain? Did I waste all that time, money, effort for nothing? These thoughts would slowly creep in from nowhere, usually when I was all alone or really tired. And you don't get more lonely and more tired than being stuck in the middle of a lake, swimming like mad, moments before the Sun rises.
Guess what? The Sun rose. And the sky was blue again. And in that moment, everything was alright. Everything was just as it was supposed to be.
Never stop working on yourself, anon. Being happy is a fleeting thing. But working on yourself, fixing what was broken, and being better than the day before? That will make your heart full. It will make you realize that the sky was always blue, but that you were just too busy looking at the pavement to notice it.