>>132209
>If anything I feel slight disdain at the lack of… Anything. You know what I mean right? Like you're disappointed, but it's worse because you expected something.
>I blame the idea of soul mates or other shit, life would be so much easier if women were just tools for biological functions, but I'm not the right kind of autist to see the world so mechanically.
>To be fair to women, people in general seem dull, boring and lacking humanity.
I get you, man. Maybe that makes you or me a contrarian piece of shit. I dunno. When I was younger, feeling as you do, I met someone so different. She was so pretty but stupidly dysfunctional and I was determined to keep her so we ripped each other into shreds for years. I'm not MGTOW either, but that removed all my false notions about the feminine mystique. At least we didn't have to end it with children or divorce and the pain made me stronger. Nowadays I'm trying really hard to appreciate people for what they are, but it's not the same.
So after, I was fit, alone, and happy. Just working on myself and helping others, aiming to be that ideal person I want to be. Then SHE came along, with the lonely eyes and sweet smile, making me think this could be it. But she couldn't stay and there was not enough time for long distance to work and now she's gone, as if she was never there. I still ask why life wants to make me believe again just to drop me from a high place. Maybe I fucked up, I dunno.
I think you got the right idea. Though from personal experience, even if you kill the possibility of finding that perfect angelic being, she might come around and fuck your shit up anyway. At least make sure you got your shit together if she comes across your path. sorry for the diary entry but consider it anecdotal for your reference
>>132220
>Anyway, yeah. But I don't like to be wrong, so I'll hold a little belief towards that perfect girl existing, and the possibility likely, so that just in case I'm wrong, I won't go trying to ruin the opportunity with a bunch of insecure paranoia about it failing, or being fake.
Seriously, this. Read what I said earlier.
>I'm the kind of person who wants to share those experiences with her.
Well I'm in my 30s now so finding a girl who hasn't lived a little would be looking below my own level. I'm not into girls that much younger than me. And I'll be dead before I fuck with a female virgin who is 26 or older. They are usually batshit crazy. I just expect someone who has maybe been through a bad break-up or lived alone in another country - doesn't sleep around a lot, but has a decent appetite for sex so her vag isn't frigid. In my mind, we can experience new things together.
>All I am is a simple man, who wants a simple girl, to be the kind of pair people talk about for centuries. Kinda corny, but i want my own knighthood and family crest n' shit for my humanitarian efforts and honor.
>simple man
>knighthood and crest
Sure, I guess you're modest or something. Hey nothing wrong with big dreams. And you shouldn't have to feel shadowed if a girl is has a background that shadows yours. Just rise up and challenge that. If she's the right one, she probably sees your potential. I want to believe you'll get there. My friends tell me I'm definitely not crazy or weird and will find the right one eventually. So I guess I'll pass the same reassurance over to you, buddy.