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Most precious years of our lives are gone and now we clinch to alcoholism
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 No.9771

I hate to say it. That's why I'm saying it here. She's not a bad person, but she's ruthless.. and paranoid. My childhood was her second childhood. I can never be a man, in her eyes. Her conception of man is literally a god.. you probably think I'm exaggerating, but I'm not. I love her a lot, a whole lot. I cry almost every night. I have been through so much. I was hooked on crystal meth and also every otber drug known to man, and I quit by my own strength. It's been three years. She only acknowledges how bad I was to ever do it. I have horrible eczema all my life. Many days I have large patches of raw, bloody skin on my neck and face. I try to hide it. She only tells le that other people have it worse. She's never worked a hard days work in her life. I've worked construction, BOH line cook, EMT.. she gives me a simple "good job", but only after I beg. I am so ready to be done with her. I can keep her happy from a distance. But life put ke back in her clutches, becase she's helping me pay for school. I'm eternally grateful. My grades are great so far. But she is not helping. I'm super autistic. I slam doors on accident and run into stuff. I'm actually one of the most autistic people, usually the most in every one of my classes and I'm 27. I rarely ever complain and I never try to make anyone feel bad about my own problems. I just have been so close to death, so many times these last few years. Every night I worry about it. I don't want to die, I love life. I am grateful to be alive. The whole time I was trying to get off drugs, my parents drank themselves into blackout almost every night. And I can never mention that to them. I try to help them, say "just please drink less, you aren't happy when you drink that much.", but they see this as an attack on their pride. They see everything as an attack on their pride. I love my parents, i can see all their vulnerabilities and i protect them. I see the kid they still are. But they use me. They have become accustomed to it. I hate to say this. I just need some encouragement or advice.

 No.9772

And I know, i fucking know she just wants the best for me. I'm getting better. She's helped me in many ways. She's kind hearted, but her narcissistic paranoia, her alcoholism is turning her into someone else. I love her and I just want her to be happy. I'm just ready to be at a distamce to her so she cannot emotionally suffocate me anymore. I know her emotional suffocation comes because she probably had the same thing happen to her. I'm just going through a rough time.


 No.9773

TL;DR


 No.9784

>>9771

>She only tells le that other people have it worse.

This sentence is so obnoxious that boomers should get a rope for even thinking it.

Weren't you thinking about finally moving out? If you don't have money just loot the old bitch. My father is alcoholic and the real hell started when I was at high school. If it wasn't for my young brother I would at that time take everything I could, buy a ticket and fly away. I was really ready to be just homeless, I didn't cared if I live or die. Your situation is different, I'm just wondering how could you stay there until 27. Alcohol addict won't change unless he wants it. You can't do nothing about it, that's the sad truth. My father lost everything, he has no one, lost 2nd job in last year because he was going drunk to work, almost feel sorry for that poor fucker but then my mother always tried to help him even though he beat the crap out of her daily until she had to be hospitalized with depression, sleeping for weeks, she was for years on pretty heavy meds. He still didn't changed because he doesn't want to change, he loves drinking until he passes out. Do you know what I mean? On top of alcohol addicts you have some old hag with complexes, being emotional vampire.


 No.9786

>>9771

You may love her, but if she's making your life worse, more terrible than she's actually helping at least on an emotional level, just abandon her. Don't be concerned with someone as selfish as that, if you can stand it, just try to get every bit of money you can/need out of her and split.


 No.9787

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>>9771

> she's not a bad person but [list of reasons she is a bad person]

Stop lying to yourself. Your mom is a nigger and you deserve better. Doesn't matter how many times people have helped you in the past, what matters is what they can do for you now and in the future.


 No.9864

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I also had problems with my mother, we were barely on speaking terms, and we only talked to fight. She was always complaining about everything, and just like your mom, she wanted me to be a literal god in earth, often asking me to be things that are extremely conflicting, like being a religious vegan cuck faggot who shares his feelings in groups, and a bold person who can stand his ground and push people away easily. When I was a teen she was always trying to castrate me, because for some unknown reason she looked at me, skinny beta nerd, and unlike everyone else in the world she saw the image of my Chad father, so she was always trying to make me even more of a whimp then I already was, since my father didn't fall for it.

You know what made me get over it? A line, a simple line, that is disturbing but also completely real: My read "your" mother acts like a nagging wife. And to nagging wifes you don't give credit, because they don't know what the fuck they want from you, they just go complaining on the way. The secret to deal with a nagging girlfriend is realizing that her opinion doesn't matter, and altought rationally they WANT you to listen to her constant drivels, what they NEED is that you stop giving then credit, man up, and follow only your own expectations and dreams. Subconsciously they desire you to work on your own demands and take the wheel of your life like the man of past times, but they don't know how to make you do it, so they nag without stop waiting for you to lose it, smack then in the face, and do your own thing. Rationally they don't want that, emotinally, they do.

Stop listening to her, stop following to her expectations, stop taking whatever she says personally, and in the next confrontation just say you will do your thing and if she wants to tag along, good, if she don't, get out of your way. Make a list of what you trully want, where you trully want to go, what you trully want to be, and follow that only. Women opinion is shit, even your mother's. Listen to this advice, this is stuff I should have learned when I was a teenager.


 No.9883

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>>9771

I was in the same emotional position while I lived with my father and his alcoholic girlfriend. I wanted them (him) to stop drinking all the time. It was met with apathy from my father and abuse from his girlfriend. When I moved out to my mother's, things got a bit better in that regard from an emotional standpoint. Out of sight, out of mind, right?


 No.9885

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>>9864

This is very good advice anon. Be a Man. Pic related.


 No.9887

>>9885

>William Burroughs

That's rich coming from a heroin addicted trust fund kiddie that murdered his wife. good quote though


 No.9888

My mother is still alive and I face the same shit. I have to eek an 'i love you' out of her. Everyday. She maximizes the bad, downplays the good I do. Nothing will ever make her happy. Dad does. My brother and sister do. But not me. Her first born.


 No.9889

Is there such thing as a practice child syndrome?


 No.9890

>>9887

Althusser was more badass. And these days who doesn't want to choke the shit out of Women?


 No.9897

>>9890

Yeah, but that wasn't my point. I just thought it was highly ironic that Burroughs said that given that he famously lead a life of extreme bourgeois hedonism.


 No.9898

>loving your mother

Lol faggot.

Look, no. There's no reason. Your family is shit. You may do things for eachother out of convenience, but that's not love. Living with your parents is shit.


 No.10511

>>9897

yeah I mean the guy was an oversocialized faggot, with all due respect.


 No.10535

>>10511

>Burroughs

>Faggot

Yes

>oversocialized

No.




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