/doomer/ - Doomers Club★

I went to psychologist because of anxiety and panic disorder and in the beginning it went well, I understood what the fuck is happening with me because I was clueless but the more I talked to her throughout the year the more obvious was there is no solution for me. My brain is wired up to have always count with any possibility and that isn't helping out. My intelligence allows me to search for patterns, no matter how unreal or abstract and that isn't really helping either. We pretty much non-verbally agreed that shit is fucked up and I either have to take meds which will tone it down or I will have to learn how to live with it because the real solution is to change thinking pattern and simply risk every low-chance possibility in your life and learn how to deal with it.

tl;dr if you have some issue, any psychologist can be helpful but don't take every his/hers word as holy, change psychologist to gain perspectives, try male or female, it's all up to you, this is very individual issue

>>8532 (OP)

im visiting psychiatrist once in few months to get prescriptions

I went to one twice.

Could not open up to him so I did not come for a 3rd session

>>8561

I had a similar experience, i've only gone to the therapist once when i was 13, he had a policy of not giving any information of our session to my mother so i never got to know what he thought about me, i didn't open myself(i gave vague answers and didn't even talk about the fact that i wanted to kill myself) so it probably isn't a good example, but for the first time i realized that other than perhaps low self esteem my problem is i don't really wish to make my mom proud, to meet people(her main reason to take me there was because i didn't had any friends). Have you seen Henry's Crime? i think Keanu Reeves it's a shit actor but the way he didn't really give a shit about anything and just went along with everything is how i feel all the time.

>>8534

>We pretty much non-verbally agreed that shit is fucked up

This is unironically /doomer/ af.

>>8576

>so i was wondering if perhaps speaking to a psychiatrist to ask if he would allow me to volunteer for some studies similar to links related.

Problem with these studies are following:

a) They are relatively rare

b) They sometimes (if not often) choose people already addicted and/or non-addicted drug users

c) You must fit their requirements and undergo psychiatric examination anyway

Just get better at getting drugs. Come on, it can't be that hard in USA.

>tfw has to improve personality and get motivation in order to be able to survive in urban environment and get access to new drugs

This timeline is truly something insane.

>>8576

Try these (in the order of increasing distance from your comfort zone):

A big music festival with Jam Bands or Psytrance artists

Bartenders / local bands at a punk venue.

Hippie chicks you might see running about (9 times out of 10, her boyfriend/ex is a dealer)

Gay Bars (honest, not trolling)

>>8586

There are, at least, still big EDM fests in the US with lots of drugs. Where are you? I can tell you 'bout some. I'd love to go to them, but I'm poor as fuck.

God, I wish I had some e and some dance music.

>>8587

Georgia here. Not coastal.

>>8588

What a coinkidink!

Here in GAH we have… uh… Euphoria. And some other thing. Also some other stuff at like Safety Wolf and places like that, new dance club just opened called Believe, too. I don't know what Believe's like, but if it's anything like Quad was (last gr8 dance club, which died a horrible death to the evil powers of zoning or sumt probably) then you can prolly find stuff there.

>>8593

Nice. I'll write this down and google locales.

You might've just given me a reason to go outside.

>>8613

>Suicidal Tendencies

Based

>>8561

Same, my mom dragged me to a therapist as a kid because I was "disrespectful." She was a drug addicted negligent cunt. Nothing came of it, I went to like 3 sessions and colored in some coloring pages and that was it, though she tried to guilt trip me over the "effort" she took for me for years afterwards.

Stupid bitch. The therapist was chill, I just sat there and colored pages. I think she got the idea that my mom was just a stupid cunt and was milking it for the paycheck.

Ive been to a therapist a couple of times, but honestly, it did little for me. It is nice at first, a comforting placebo, but ultimately it turns into insurance-approved complaining with little sense of any progress. My most recent therapist did say that I seemed like the kind of person who would be happier living off grid in a forest somewhere. Felt weird that he said that but I didn't feel that he was wrong.

>>8534

>any psychologist can be helpful but don't take every his/hers word as holy

I wish I had done this; my psychologist made a lot of small semantic errors in his reasoning so I didn't respect much of what he said. I felt that he didn't understand my personality and what I valued in life (barely anything). In the end I kept things from him and couldn't trust him to understand my "true self". I've had similar experiences with other psychologists.

If I had taken his word as gospel and trusted in the process then I would probably be in a much better mental state. Then again; if I was capable of trusting people I probably wouldn't have as many problems.

>>8532 (OP)

Most of them read off a scheduled script and you could save time plus money by just getting a self therapy book for whatever problem. I’d only recommend going to one if you can’t help yourself well or are lonely.

as a female i feel more comfortable talking to female counsilors and therapist women are usually nicer to me than men