/doomer/ - Doomers Club

>>293

question is, are you born doomer or do you become one

>>293

I guess mostly schools. When I got out of school suddenly I realized I'm left on my own and all that bullshit about job security, harmonic family, etc. were just propaganda trash. Years passed by and I wasn't able to deal with it so I'm dooming for life.

>>297

Pretty much also this. I don't expect from state power to give me meaning but I wish if I'd do something for my people it would actually count. Nobody cares about anything, we are in decline as society. It's very nihilistic but at the same time I'm not really depressed, I just accepted world as it is and wish for better.

>>297

>serf

No, serfs had it better. At least there was a sense of community and if you were ruled by a tyrant you could easily point a finger at the asshole and usurp his power.

The current system are the assholes are hiding behind bureaucracy and hundreds of thousands of pages of law. The NPCs are all shock troops to regulate the PCs from the basal social level to the ZOGbot play simon says/twister or else they ventilate you level.

>>358

>from the basal social level to the ZOGbot play simon says/twister or else they ventilate you level.

i was with you until this part. rephrase with better grammar plz

>>374

I kinda like it the way it is. It's like he cracked at the end.

He's not wrong. Serfs had more autonomy than we do. The feudal system is what it was but what they don't say is usually lords left the serfs alone to manage their own affairs. People also didn't live under the illusion absolute freedom is the greatest good. Modern thought does have an ideology and given the state of our civilization it's obviously wrong. For them freedom was freedom from the passions until the man was ruled by his higher intellect. That's at least what they strived toward. Your position in life simply was what it was and you tried to serve the divine from there. Harsh life but a life where whatever your lot you had a soul and a stake in things. Your existence mattered. That's what we have lost. Our problem isn't that we suffer, most of us don't really, we're comfortable, it's that we suffer for no good reason.

>>379

i suffer. i cant speak for these cattle that surround me, but i do. i don't understand how any thinking man doesn't carry multiple existential crises. i don't expect anyone to relate though.

>>374

The social level like normalfags thinking you're fucked in the head for not listening to pop wigger shit and not having social media. ZOGbot level like mindless ZOGbots willing to kill you no questions asked if their superiors tell them to.

>>388

Zogbots are miserable, everyone is, they just don't think as much about why. I'm talking about you haven't had food in a week or people are dropping all around you from disease kind of suffering. Most of us don't even go without AC. We're comfortable and prosperous but somehow so miserable suicide is common. The sickness blanketing everything isn't in the body or material it's in the soul. How much genuine love, empathy, faith, charity, loyalty, etc is really out there? The truth nobody wants to accept is we're here because this is what we made. We all play a part in it and we're not good people.

>be sorrounded by screens and multimedia from a very early age

>have a very profound potential for self-insight but neglect it over inane stuff that requires no mental effort

>fuck up my frontal lobe

>depression kicks in

>no pleasure on videogames anymore

>suddenly had the realization of being a zombie with low self esteem half of my life

>obsessively look for a solution on spirituality, psychology, self-help and existentialist philosophy

>unmotivation kicks in harder than ever

>depression deepens

>now stuck with all this knowledge floating in my head and no motivation to get myself out of this hell-hole

that's basically my doomer progress so far.

>>409

be very careful about that. i have sometimes similar problem of having head full of ideas but when i want to realize them i suddenly loose all energy.

>>409

Literally me.

>>415

Same. Starting is hard, sustaining the effort even harder. It should be a simple thought process "I want to do X" then just do X, but something in there doesn't want me too. I can almost sense myself actively sabotaging my effort. We must find a solution. This isn't real, it's in our head.

>>421

I don't know if it's depression or just lack of self-discipline though. I don't think it should be that hard doing things I want to do, literally trying to force myself to enjoy activities I want to enjoy.

>>459

Of course you don't, nobody does. I'm right though. The modern world looks like a fucking Bosch painting, as individuals we don't come close to the tenacity and virtue of our ancestors even after getting woke to ZOG and people wonder why things went to shit.

>>520

>I'm right though.

i just articulated why you are not completely right

>>520

>The modern world looks like a fucking Bosch painting

sure, the 3rd panel of "garden of earthly delights" to be specific. ive been saying this for over a decade

>>520

>we don't come close to the tenacity and virtue of our ancestors

we were beat by another tribe. our ancestors were not because they didnt have 4th generation warfare or the industrial revolution back then.

you're just getting sloppy now and trying to split hairs after being bested

>>531

I can be more specific if you like.

>as individuals have very little influence on the bigger things that effect our life.

but you do have a sphere of influence. What do you do with it? Do you even consider it? Do you help the people around you or are they all worthless cattle not on your level who can't be bothered with? You didn't give Netflix your money. Such self sacrifice.

>I didnt create this hellacious desecrating torture prison.

Yes you do. We all do. Our immediate environment is what make it whatever the limitations may be. TVs can be turned off. People can be helped, ideas shared, bonds made. It doesn't happen because everyone can't be bothered with the sheeple and wants to go home to their comfort and cummies. We're selfish.

>its important to make this distinction

It's important for you to feel innocent.

Better?

>>395

its seems like a social proof thing. You need a snapchat that you can show your popular, you need the newest iphone to prove that you have money. You need to listen to [rap] to show that you're cool.

The first two I get, displays of wealth and popularity are farly resonable, but people around our age seem genuinley disterbed when you say you tell them you don't enjoy listening to rap. I don't know why this an issue.

>>415

Even typing out posts is hard for me. I'm constantly mulling over things in my head; whenever I try to sit down and create something I'm completely paralyzed. I have no idea how to make my ideas a reality and it sucks.

>>545

>Even typing out posts is hard for me. I'm constantly mulling over things in my head; whenever I try to sit down and create something I'm completely paralyzed. I have no idea how to make my ideas a reality and it sucks.

Not trying to fuck your life up and get you a cancer but I solve this with chainsmoking. Without nicotine I can only barely focus.

>>549

I smoke so much I could smoke a redwood covered in tractor tires by now and I still have no attention span. I don't think it's nicotine it's probably some kind of ritual that works for you.

>>545

>You need a snapchat that you can show your popular, you need the newest iphone to prove that you have money.

It's not absolutely necessary. If you know how framing works, you can pull chicks even if you're some hobo. ie. When they are convinced that they are cool because of bullshit things like iPhones and social media, you show them the other side, that you're cool because you don't give a fuck about iPhones and social media, that you're better than all that. You have to pull them into your mentality.

>rap

In my experience, guys who listen to rap might be more/less okay despite having a shit taste in music, but I tend to ignore the fuck out of girls who listen to all kinds of wigger trash.

>>534

i really dont care enough to argue. go ahead and blame yourself for this. thats fine with me.

>>554

i imagine that only works on the most vapid people. i automatically assume anyone trying to assert their superiority over using or not using something is a showoff/poser.

>>550

probably you are right and it's just psychological or maybe it's pure addiction and if i don't smoke i feel like sitting on nitroglycerin

>>605

>muzzie psychiatrist asks him why he hadn't killed himself already

>he says basically "you are just paranoid, grow up and get over it"

you got to "love" this fucking timeline

>>520

You are objectively wrong and annoyingly solipsistic.

>>605

Sounds like an extremely lousy psychiatrist

>>459

A design failure. we became slaves to our own engineering. Even the elites who supposedly controlled society are nothing less that more cogs of a mechanical beast

Very easy to fall into a dystopian frame.

>>520

Tenacity and virtue are abstractions that are influenced by collective morality. You shouldn't compare values from the past with values from the present, they're always evolving. Then again, i get the point that the current state of values look extremely shitty from a conservative or redpilled point of view.

>what made you this way

I never had a chance

>father total beta cuck

>never taught me how to be a man

>cannot remember ever spending father son time with him

>would ridicule me often

>mother batshit insane and officially diagnosed shizo

>aunt officially diagnosed shizo

>uncle on mother's side of family alcoholic NEET living in his mothers appartement

>grandfather on mother's side of family alcoholic and violent

>shit parenting while growing up

>got beaten often and because of this

>learned to lie and cheat myself out of nasty situations and blame other people

>parents were lowlifes themselves

>worked dead end jobs their entire lives, never achieved anything, never promoted

>while illiterate mideast immigrants run their own restaurants and takeaways

>parents never teached me useful skills in life

>but expect me to become successful basically what they failed to achieve

>anon just go to school and money is no problem, government will pay everything

>government will look for you

>grow up to be passive shit who expects to be helped for everything in life

>in modern day economy where you are expected to be proactive and flexible

>and a social butterfly on top of it all

as a general rule of thumb. If you are genetic trash yourself, it is okay to fuck and satisfy your lust.

But please don't create people like me. There is so many people out there suffering because some normalshits

could not keep their urge to reproduce. And holy shit my father broke the first basic rule. You never stick your dick in crazy. Never ever.

I just hope my suicide method is as painless as I hope charcoal method and that my waifu will wait for me on the other side.

>>635

>abstractions

That is why we're fucked. Good and evil aren't subjective. They come from nature. Good is what serves life and what comes from selflessness. It's what comes from the part of man that is more than animal. Evil is entropry. What brings death, what comes from the animal, the lower part of our being. It's a baby swatting a butterfly. The world wants us perpetually children in the lower self with meaningless material. Worshipers of death. A selfish thing seeking the desires of the flesh because then the human being who is a slave to his own desires is easy to control and has no real standards. We've been deceived into believing it's ever been or will ever be otherwise. People get really mad when anyone suggests that good and evil are truly real and there is a higher ideal than man himself, but the entropy we suffer is the consequence of the evil we do and tolerate. It speaks for itself.

>>644

I had it kinda similar.

>father was no father figure, constantly instead of supporting me was just mocking me, beat the crap out of me even if i did nothing + was alcoholic who abused my mother

>granddad supplied the male role for me, died when i was like 6

>mother went through literal hell and psychiatric disease

>i had to take care of myself, my brother and her

<it seems i did at least good job in that because my brother is really good man now who can take care of himself

<it fucked up me for good though

>i had intelligence, good results in school, decided to drop out because i wasn't really going along well with teachers and every day was some problem with my behavior

>now i have a good paying job though but it's not bringing me any sense of accomplishment

>at least i improved my relationship with family members and trying to feel like i can rely on them (which is maybe trap)

It sounds completely like teenage bitching but I went through a lot and now I don't even feel like my childhood was something real, it's just like dream so I have no feelings towards it and people involved. The biggest problem I have now is that time passes so quickly and I'm starting to lose myself in this clusterfuck of things just happening around me without me being even able to react, I don't know where the world is heading at the same time, so I don't know what could again go wrong. I feel every day like sitting on bomb that is going to go off anytime soon but until that happens I'm just lying to myself that everything is fine.

>>660

and proud of it

>>660

>You are all slaves to Winona Ryder's Jew mindwitch spells

you are also a slave to jews if you are a US citizen with a SSN and a Long Form Birth Certificate. dont forget to file ur taxes goyim

also, sam simon, simpsons co creator and "creative force" was a kike. you ride the purity spiral first nigger

https://jewishweek.timesofisrael.com/the-simpsons-co-creator-dies-at-59/

>>666

>The Simpsons couldn't possibly be Jewish.

those digits. eerie

>>666

>666

wtf satan what's your endgame? i thought when i will worship you and won't be too antisemitic i get winona clone as gf from top position jews and now all is ruined.

>>668

I didn't even notice the digits until after the fact and then wept at the sheer perfection of it

Synagogue of Satan confirmed

>>669

>expecting not to get Jewed when making a deal with (((Satan)))

>>297

>>293

You see that bunch of library books in the other post I'm replying too? That is something like what the size of the quantum supercomputing arrays look like which are being used to turn everyone into god damned guinea pigs so child raping perverts can do whatever the hell they want while corrupt "White" people with their Jewish cohorts sell everything Noble out to become loosh for demons to drink. Why the hell should such a world be treated with any sense of hope, let alone admiration or love and wonder?

>>695

>Using nature or logos as a compass for morality is bound to ultimately fail because of the uncertainty principle; we don't know the entire scope of nature's influence yet.

If we pull back on that a bit we do know enough to see the cause and effect of our current moral system to draw the conclusion it doesn't work and is counter productive. Example, we had monogamy, many sexual taboos, all these rewarded forming a family unit and dissuaded fornication. Then we became so enlightened we decided the sexual revolution was a good idea, because morality is relative. The consequences have been drops in birth rates, breakdown of the nuclear family, disease, etc all speeding the decay of the civilization because it's no longer fit to survive. Chasing the lusts of the flesh leading to entropy leading to death. Sin and Death, it makes perfect sense.

>This is why i wish i was able to produce a purely individual sense of meta-morality instead of following conventionalisms.

You can't because we are all fallible. Man cannot be his own God because of his capcity for self deciet. We need a solid incorruptible point to focus on. I think you figured out where I'm getting mine.

>You can't associate evilness with entropy or decay unless you add a comparative variable in the middle of all that (relativism). If you want to charge order and entropy with good or bad qualities respectively, go ahead, but know that its a commodity and not a fundamental truth.

Too many big words for my goy brain. You lost me.

Do appreciate the thought out response. I like to foight.

>>696

what is loosh?

>>699

Wise question. It is a stand-in term for the idea that emotions represent a quantity of energy that is not merely epiphenomenal representation of biological processes of the organism's survival impulses, but represents a substantive energy that is edible for entities that have a more direct access to these energies, in a spectrum of our reality which lies just beyond our perception.

>>699

/fringe/ term. Something along the lines of emotions used as fuel for magic.

>>697

>You can't associate evilness with entropy or decay unless you add a comparative variable in the middle of all that (relativism). If you want to charge order and entropy with good or bad qualities respectively, go ahead, but know that its a commodity and not a fundamental truth.

Kek, sorry for making this so blurry. I meant that when we label something as good or bad, we compare it with something else in order for said label to take place

i.e:

>a starving pack of lions eats an elephant and its baby.

>If you side with the elephant, this is an extremely bad scenario.

>If you side with the lion pack, its the best scenario possible.

That's the relative character of our incomplete morality.

If you keep looking into details of that scenario, you'll start to find an infinitude of variables that will interchangeably shift your perspective from bad to good. If we had an objective moral knowledge, have a tiny glimpse of the blueprint of the universe, we could easily get rid of these dichotomies. But we're eternally stuck at 1% of the process of decoding it through science.

>>705

For the lion and the elephant there's nothing complicated about it. Lion's good is feed on the elephant, elephant's good is get away. For both to be universally good is impossible because they're evil by their very nature as are we. Good's truth isn't proven scientifically but by its necessity. We live in a society that's trying to change the definition of "good" and we see the result. We can't change good we can only lie about it or confuse ourselves about it. There's always the perfect, most benevolent, most justified choice that will do the maximum good. We just don't have the wisdom or more often will to know for certain what that perfect choice is. Therefore it's never grey, it's always black and white and it's very real.

Does that make sense?

>>747

only if you base your morals off of epicureus.

>>705

>>700

you guys know anything about shadow people? serious question

>>358

makes sense

>>379

yeah I kind of see it that way

I became one because of failed relationships, my political views going really hardcore, and years of my buds being fairweather friends, or turning out to be. now its just me and my 42 year old roommate, working shit jobs to pay the rent. no women want us. we're doomed, ipso facto.

>>293

For me it was a stepping stone to giving up, deconstructing my views of reality and discovering occultism.

Now I come here just for the comfy music.

>>807

>Now I come here just for the comfy music.

poser

Well, my genes are to blame. At 12 I just wanted to die for no apparent reason since everything was going well. Bipolar II, just genes.

>>761

They're around. That's all I can say. When your perception is really acute you can see them, mostly at night, but they're around all the time.

>>814

And that perception is usually when on drugs or sleep paralysis

>>747

tbh I don't like either. most Rationalism is derived from Descartes and Spinoza, and Jefferson was a states rights cuck. replace both with Rousseau or Hamilition

>>831

Because it led to South Carolina passing some dumbass law criminalizing the criticism of the state of Pissrael

>>821

>states rights cuck

die yankee scum. federalization is jewish

>>855

after a century of federal (read yankee jewish) rule

>>904

I need to learn to play the banjo. When the race war breaks out I want to jump on a bar and scream "RACE WAAAAR" then start plucking some hot and fast southern spice while shit goes down.

>>893

I feel you brother. I feel like sharing this: I think that I am, and possibly you are as well, about to reach a potential flash point in life. An opportunity to jump out of the rut. Within two months time I will have completed my contract at work. I have not opted to renew it and am leaving on good terms. I will be settling my affairs in my home country so to speak, making good with my family and friends, ordering my meagre finances and such. And then I am going to fly to Paris and apply for the foreign legion. That, if I can make the cut, willl be the next chapter of my life. It'll probably be miserable, and hard, but it'll be a real adventure, and I truly believe that is what I need.

>>904

I can't wait for separatism wave in USA.

>>925

baby tier. calexit will be heaven's gift and texit will be the real deal. you just have to do it. i have to admit we are kind of asleep in europe, like 70+ years without war? we got really lazy, thanks god ukrainians and russians are saving our reputation.

>>927

im sorry actually there was some clusterfuck happening in balkans so europe is less than 70 years without war. having a neighbors you could fight once in a while is very cheerful.

>>927

It's never going to happen. Secessionist fringe movements are barely paid attention too and Calexit was an insincere publicity stunt. Most of the country jokingly supported it, we all hate CA, it's a tumor, but it was still a joke. TX has always had a reputation for being somehow independent, but again it's a joke. Government here is massive and centralized. Either that goes or nothing does and if that were to happen it means the whore of babylon is already dead.

>>912

thunderdome futurism is a dank meme. tell me more of this future anon

>>927

>baby tier.

nigger what? that was a man's war and the South won freedom for 4 years. The NSDAP barely did better.

>>929

i can see the US government giving a few states to mexico in the next 5-10 years

>>1032

>you faggot

>post literal faggot pic

yankees are anglos which are white kikes. im glad youre in kentucky, you should be kept away from White people.

>>1031

Ridiculous, but that would make for some fantastic chaos. What the kikes want to do is open the border and sugar the ground with gibs so the spics swarm in droves and finally out breed what's left of white America. Then you got a brown population with low standards and IQs dependent on social welfare. Just like Europe. Mexico doesn't have the gibs so Mexico doesn't get anything. It's just the can the beans come from.

>>893

Boomer fuck

>drugged into a destroyed mind

>gray matter gets destroyed in the process

>cant do anything worthwhile because lack of proper gray matter

>tfw bosses think i'm just plain retarded

>unable to keep a job for more than a few weeks

>depression kicks in again

>sudden urge to drink my liver to death

>tfw too pussy to do it

>realizes the world expects too much out of everyone and slides into hole

>>1052

they would give cali to mexico to demoralize us. everything else you are saying is obvious and doesnt need to be said.

>childhood

>grew up with single mom, dad was an autist

>lived in the shitty part of town

>inheriting dad's autism turned me into an unlikeable sperg

>every adult save for teachers and biological family hated me

>even the other kids wanted nothing to do with me

>missed all the vital childhood social experiences: friendships, playing together, sleeping over, etc.

>adolescence

>realized how fucked I was in childhood and fell into depression

>depression + lack of prior social experience = missed all the vital teenage experiences as well: hanging out with friends, getting a license/job at that age, first love, etc.

>all I had going for me was that I could code kind of well, but without anyone to care about what I was making, my passion for programming eventually faded

>had no real life goals, honestly hoped I could kill myself by the end of high school

>somehow managed to make a couple friends before it ended, held onto them even to this day just because I don't want to be alone

>college

>realized everything I missed out on high school

>"not this time, I'm going to get out there and make more friends, maybe even get a girlfriend"

>hahahaha nope

>car problems sapped away what little money I had, requiring me to take online classes just to avoid using my car as much as possible

>online classes = no going on campus with other students = no socialization

>plus the PC bullshit had started seeping into everything and feeding socially-awkward women cherrypicked/fabricated stories about men being creeps

>became too afraid to talk to women because there's no telling what they could have done if I made one small slip

>after college

>got a full-time job, moved out, found a car that didn't break down on me every few months

>"okay this is it for real, I've got money and a better car and freedom so now I can do things and meet people"

>except not because work keeps me too fucking busy

>friends have jobs too, and our schedules are too different to even let us hang out on the weekends or such

>plus there's nowhere in this shitty suburban town to meet anyone I'd want to talk to anyhow

>only possible place would be to move to some bigger city, but they have their own problems: higher crime, ridiculous rent, etc.

>at this point I realize that when people said we aren't truly free in this world, they were 100% serious

>don't even have the courage for suicide now, and something tells me that if I ever get it back, they'll ban guns where I live just to spite me (even though this is Texas and that couldn't realistically happen)

>>653

thank you brother. really appreciated this

I really liked her in Heathers. The 90s were whack but still better than today.

>>661

whoa, that was sad to read. I think it is not your fault that things ended this way.

>>1222

your story was sad as well. But yeah, if your father was autismo then you had no chance. Just like me.

By the way anons. Do you sometimes observe future genetic dead ends when you go to school/stores? For example today I saw this boy. Maybe 8 years old with his mother. Mother was overweight. He had glasses and monkey ears and this goofy look/face. He reminded me of the taller guy from the crazy frog video. I can imagine the route that his life will take him.

I often see those people stick out the mass. Then I think: "oh boy, you have no idea how shitty your life will become".

>>1376

>whoa, that was sad to read. I think it is not your fault that things ended this way.

i don't blame myself nor I have any negative feelings and maybe that's the problem. you know, i kinda keep doing something all the time. years ago i had time for myself, i was thinking a lot about life and so on. recently i'm trying to escape this.

My mother, my boomer fucking mother

>talking to her today

>she tells me that 45k starting "isn't much"

This bitch cannot read and has no skills and can't remember shit yet she makes 100k at her job. She is utterly fucking delusional and if I don't move out in the next year I'll probably end up committing heinous crimes because I fucking hate hate hate her so fucking much.

Fuck baby boomers, holy fucking shit.

>>1428

>be boomer

>grow up in times of greatest prosperity

>in a walled garden, safely protected

>commies are behind the iron wall

>chinks are isolated

>africa and south america are disconnected because travelling is expensive for people

>get all oppurtunities handed on silver plate

>buy house for a few years worth of salary

>buy car with 1 year worth salary

>everything was cheap back then

>outsource all entry level and mid tier jobs to asia 20 years later

>import slave labour from 3rd world because nobody wants to do your shit jobs for meager pay

>costs of everything explode into infinity

>meanwhile boomers sit on pension funds worth 2 or 3 hundred grand easily

>and the stock market is still beeing pumped into stratosphere

>lol these kids are so lazy

>why are they unemployed and living in their mothers basements

>what, you only make 45K?

I hate those shits and I hope they all suffocate in their own feces when they are stuck in retirement homes

Will moving to japan give me desire to live out my days? I read only the unfulfilled man tried to achieve old age. So why not just let myself expire peacefully at age 30 or 40 from some cause or another? Why try to start a ‘new life’ when I’ll just be running from my only life?

>>1541

become batman

>>1542

I did that in highschool, it worked out really well. Can't get away with that any more.

>>1545

What you'd really benefit from is no longer identifying yourself as a victim. The lesson to learn from getting the shit kicked out of you is to not let yourself be vulnerable. Reinforcing feelings of hopelessness and weakness by remaining fixated on painful memories is a waste of energy and self destructive. I'm not saying "man up you're a bitch" I'm saying don't react to memory with emotion, take what can learn from them, then cut the memories loose for your own good. The present has its own obstacles.

>>1555

lol what is this horse shit? Let the man vent.

for me it was easy dopamine. i grew up on the internet and eventually became a pseudo-chad, spending my free time at partys with sluts. now none of it is fun anymore but i just try to recapture that sense of nostalgia a and tell myself im just a social user.

>>409

Do you have any accomplishments? Motivation doesn't come from nowhere. You have to start somewhere and build momentum, then continue. If for example you aren't even /fit/, I don't understand why you're here without taking these basic steps. I thought Doomers had already run the gauntlet and came out the other side stronger, but must confront that everyone else is such a lazy and greedy cunt that you remain isolated despite success.

>>1525

Moving to Japan won't help.

>>293

>WHO IS TO BLAME?

capitalism.

>>3170

God damn you guys need the brownshirts back.

>>3174

Typical american defending capitalism and being in denial about NS being against capitalism, eh? He is not wrong though, a lot of things that are wrong today are direct result of capitalism.

>>3195

I know I know. You and your Communist buddy here could save the west if only we'd curb our racism and antisemitism.

Winona

Ryder

is

a

JEW

>>921

I wouldn't get your hopes up, even if you pass everything and are by all standards perfect you only got a 1/8 chance of getting in. I considered it before but France is a long way to go to get rejected

>>3224

I thought they only took ex special forces now. It's like some multinational super elite of dudes fleeing rape charges and alimony and shit who join for new identities. With the state of France a new identity there hardly seems worth it regardless.

>>297

basically this

>>3201

racism? eh

antisemitism? loaded question, more counter-semitism than pure anti

>>605

You want a therapist. A psychiatrist is literally a brain pharmacist. They don't know anything but what drugs do what symptoms.

Go get actual therapy.

>>293

red pill overdose? idk man i just woke up one day feeling /doomer/.

8 years in the infantry, 2 combat deployments, seeing the warrior ethos stripped away from the Marine Corps, finding out the "cause" we were fighting and bleeding for was a lie, finding out that the opium in Afghanistan that we were protecting was going back into the needles in America, finding out how kiked the whole country and its history is, finding out how stoutly the jews control public thought and media, then topping it all off with finding out how irreparably blue-pilled 90+% of Americans are. I've pretty much given up.

Additionally, why risk everything to try and find a needle-in-the-haystack decent woman? Why, if I find one (lol) should I sire children who will be brainwashed by a hostile government and their corporate satraps? I only have to work 20 hours a week to have more than enough money for rent, food, and more rounds than I could ever fire. And I fully anticipate going out in that fashion. But until that day comes, I am inert, hopeless, and hopefully very drunk.

>i guess the point i 'became' a doomer was when i knew i was going to off myself

holy shit that hit me hard

I hope your mom gets better or at least has a non-painful death. My grandfather died from colonic cancer. It was very painful and if there wasn't people nursing him we would have died in his own feces

>>4325

>i guess the point i 'became' a doomer

no one chooses the doom. the doom chooses you. welcome brudder.

>>3201

>opposition to capitalism equals communism

Don't you know what ideology the Brownshirts were a part of, dumbass?

Falling for the higher education meme seems to be a key ingredient in inducing doomer syndrome, but not a requirement.

>>4330

>we're not commies, we just hate capitalism

That's like saying:

>we're not race-traitors, we just hate white people

>>4415

Are you Jewish?

>>4419

Or just somebody who had to actually endure communism and how shitty it was.

>>409

remove that star from your flag and you are me.

>>761

>you guys know anything about shadow people?

yeah those niggers always appear to remind me about their existence as soon as I start forgetting about them.

>>1541

have you considered making an experiment where you prove a quantum immortality at macro scale? it looks like you have potential to prove it in this timeline.

>>415

what do you mean by "be careful", is it even preventable?

I used to be on the left, I believed everything could be made better, but I realized it only made things worse.

I turned turned to the right, but realized they wanted me and my people to die just the same.

I turned to the alt right, but realized they would never accomplish anything.

I have nothing left to believe in. When I look at people, I see hamsters on wheels. I feel like I am surrounded by robots.

>>293

>>295

i became a doomer, and it was all my fault…

when i realized that my current sorry state was completely attributable to choices i made.

i have used people, manipulated and insulted them, lied to them and stolen from them and then cried rivers of crocodile tears when they abandoned me…

in spite of many obstacles i faced i could've led a really great life, but i fucked it up, and only now that i've lost all those years do i realize there are no do-overs…

i've hurt so many people and the guilt of it is palpable…

>>696

>>699

>>700

>>705

i've always used loosh as a term for psychic/emotional currency.

everything can be expressed as a function of economics

physics is just the economics of heat…

>>4551

Too bad we have so much trouble connecting with each other. A mannerbund of like-minded could be a force to be reckoned with. Then at least we could believe in each other, even if the rest are lemmings.

>>4312

Who were you with, killer? Also, what years on the deployments?

Me.

>>4551

You are seeing things very realistically. Don't associate with people only because you have similar ideology, that's very shallow bond and easily could be broken. It's really hard but try to find somebody you have something deeper but then again, people will stab you to back for anything, so you never know. If you are one reliable person, you are making this thing easier for other reliable people and with bit of a luck everything will go well.

>>4605

People stopped talking to each other. Often one sentence could solve the whole "conflict" but no, somehow it's better option to put around yourself huge walls and fight everyone. I don't get it.

>>4593

But you know, we all make mistakes and sometimes we fuck up real good. If you hurt people, and please don't take it as me preaching to you, but honest apology is usually very good solution even if it comes years later. I carry the same burden and only recently I tried to fix things, the worst is if you can't reach that person you should anymore because they are dead or somewhere on other side of planet. If you have opportunity, you are able to solve it.

>>293

>single mother

>she is rich from inheritance and an ardent feminist

>she was more interested in partying and indulgence than in raising her children

>never on a sports team or socialized as a kid, mostly treated as a hindrance to mom getting fucked up drunk.

>get to watch hours of tv everyday

>constantly indoctrinated by her cosmopolitan propaganda

>eventually get diddled by one of her gay friends

>she gets her act together once I'm 8 but the damage has been done

>already socially isolated and effectively autistic

>become reclusive and misanthropic throughout high school

>hate the system, hate society, hate people, hate myself

>self hate becomes so powerful that it fuels a self transformation

>work out everyday, study hard, but still autistic

>have so many things I want to change but will never be able to realize my goals

>slip into drugs, alcohol and depression

>drift meaninglessly in life, forever unhappy

>What made you this way?

Mostly I'd blame my upbringing. I never had any positive virtues instilled upon me, was never pushed to learn and never learned the importance of effort. My childhood fostered sloth and gluttony, and the only role models I had were hedonistic faggots and bitches. Having said that I am a naturally paranoid person. At his point resent, hatred and paranoia are so ingrained in my psyche that I will never be able to function "properly" in society.

>WHO IS TO BLAME?

I'd love to blame my mom, but in reality she is just as much a victim of circumstances as I am. She was spoiled rotten and just as depraved of love, affection and true parental care as I was. Our degenerate indulgent culture is to blame. The death of innocence and childhood are to blame. Our godless society is to blame. The apathetic dynamic of groups. Meaningless education. The selfish ways of humans. Those who engineer society for their own gain. The wilfully ignorant. My society is getting fucked in the ass and everyone is cheering on as we head towards a Brave New World situation. The meaning and sanctity of life have been completely desecrated and everyone is acting like its ok.

Sorry if I sounded like a faggot there. I doubt anything will ever change, because of human nature and because we’ve been on this path for hundreds of years. Can’t wait till it all ends.

>>295

Was Darth Vader black, or did he become black? (I’m sorry I’ll read the thread before replying. You just can’t set me up like that.)

>>4630

Brother if you stop the cycle and don't transmit the misery of faggotry onto the next generation of children then you deserve to be commended. Nobody deserves what happened to you. Parents are such selfish and sadistic fucks these days, and there is no "victim of circumstance" excuse once you're an adult.

There's no blame. It's pointless to blame bogeymen, this is how shit stacks. An isolated childhood filled with deception, hate, disconnection from my peers and scarcity, development of thick mental barriers and passionate hobbies, then noticing that I don't quite click with other people, trying to find my way. Then came disappointment with feelings, experience of rejection, evil and permanent change of all things, then came the experience of loss and building my life anew. Now I live in a mixture of nihilism, ambition, self discipline, self imposed high etical standards and ascetism, despite having a well paid, engaging job in which I am very good at. I have switched from eternally waiting for things to get better to disillusionment and walking the path with no end, being next to things and at the centre at the same time. I walk and observe.

if this was pinned it would stop the plethora of <10 post threads that shit up this board. pin it already

>>295

you don't choose either

what does make someone a doomer ie what does it mean to be a doomer?

>>459

Join Patriot Front

>>9547

thanks. i respect a lot of those men, and know them personally, but I'll never in my life fly the US flag.

>>9488

BO READ THIS POST FAGGOT

>>9570

I like their flag, though. It keeps the overall motif of Old Glory, but adds fasces in a way that makes sense aesthetically.

>>9569

I fucking hate Icelanders. So fucking smug and self-righteous. Holiday all over Europe and shit-talk Americans for being "racist" and "ignorant". Get an Icelander to come to America and listen to them say how they're going to spend a few days in NYC and then drive down to Miami for a day. No concept of space beyond their own assholes. Seriously cannot stand Icelanders. Given everything good in the world and they pissed it all away. Better get used to those murder-rapes.

>tfw amma used to talk about how there were never any blacks in Iceland

>>9667

>rebelled against God by buying all the tickets to a correctly anti-homo Minister's speech, and then not going to protest like the passive aggressive sodomites that they are

>kick out jew bankers and refuse to pay usury fee

angering both God and the god of this world means they'll be wrecked. it'll be a microcosm of what happens to America, but America won;t be finished off like they will.

feminists > muslims > kikes > infinite niggers > televised rape and arson > white bitches apologizing in front of flames

I CANT WAIT. THOSE GODLESS VIKINGS DESERVE EVERYTHING THEY GET FOR NOT APPRECIATING THE UTOPIA THEY WERE GIVEN. NO GRATITUDE NO MERCY. BO SHOULD VACATION AMIDST THE RAISING

>>9667

tfw iceland is literally one of the closest things we have to an ethnostate today

>>9777

and both my parents are literal tv addicts

they always blame me for being online all day long but they don't do anything other themselves either.

with role models like them, what other thing could one learn …

the degeneration of society

>>9777

Parents want from kid a good person, some kind of ideal which unfortunately isn't working in real life. I can't blame my parents for putting all these memes to my head, I blame myself because I either realized it's bullshit too late or I never did anything to change the situation. The only thing I was successful at was being myself which brought me nothing but trouble but at the end it turned out that at least I could live with myself, live with my own identity, no matter how terrible that identity is. Be yourself is unironically pretty good advice because at least you know if people hate you, it's because of you and not because you try to please them. Big cliche, brings nothing but pain irl but worked for me.

>>9823

Of course it's all just spooks but the real thing to realize here is if you do exactly the opposite of what you just listed, you might at least be successful criminal for few years before somebody blow your head off. That's also real fun, when this should "wake you up" and get to work while if you do the opposite, you get stuff done.

>you won't get anything done in school

>you have to be an asshole sometimes

>you have to steal something (even if opportunity) for yourself

>you have to lie sometimes

>you can't be nice to a bitch who terrorizes you

>you can't be nice to bully

>all that matters in this fucked up world is money

>only thing that will patch up your broken soul is having pockets full of money

>material things are useful and you better be a crook if life cornered you because you have no other opportunity

But still, I'm brainwashed into being nice guy, showing the other cheek, being a gentleman (but not submissive) even to a bitch who screwed me over, blaming myself because some asshole climbed over my back for selfish reasons, etc. I mean, can I really blame my parents for trying to make me a good person even if it's illusion? I'm still really not sure if It's fair thing to do, I can blame myself for having and opportunities to make things better and not turning them into reality.

>>9777

>This is the reason why genetic waste should not have children.

>They just create unhappy humans stuck on a planet they feel no connection with.

not true. one of the best guys i ever met was born because this guy raped his mom. he was the product of that. it didnt stop him from being an optimistic guy that had a lot of talent and who did well in life.

>>9849

but that does not say anything about the mother and father

if the father was a psychopathic entrepreneur he could be hardly be classified as genetic trash. Well, the mother is just the mother. 50% mentally unstable chance. If the father allows her, she might fuck up the children.

The case for my parents was that both were passive perma-frustrated underachievers and from the start it was clear they would never amount to anything in life. Now their biggest hope is the government pension.

>muh pension

>I don't want to lose muh pension

Imagine this being your life. Living like a little rat in the dark, fearing for someone to take away your gibs

Better live like a lion for 1 day than 5000 years like bunker rat.

>>9899

My mother is totally based in this matter. She kept telling me always that there is no way for her to even reach pension and that might be the truth, people in our family rarely live that long. I don't even have pension in my mind, like if I accidentally live that long I will be broke. But luckily that won't happen because I'm not even hoping to reach 40.

I was going to write up a parody of the unlimited blade works chant about depression, anxiety and life on the autism spectrum but I can't be bothered

>>9899

not as bad as the muh property value boomers here

idk if you have zoning rackets in Europe, here the town needs to deem plots of land residential for housing to be built on them. Usually that means bribes by developers, a cost passed on to home buyers. Boomers will vote for town councilmen who vow to prevent new zoning or power lines or sewer capacity to restrict the supply of housing so their own house increases in value, because housing is an investment commodity now, not a thing people need to live. And then they complain their kids won't move out.

>>9904

leave the username and password and kill yourself already. if you put out candles first its based or whatever. do it pussy.

>WHO IS TO BLAME?

a combination of my own stupidity and my oldest brother's maliciousness. I'll never forgive him for the shit he did to me. Even now that he's almost 30 and by all appearances settled down i will never forget.

>>9908

>governments solve problems

>that they create in the first place

statism explained. god how much I hate this world being the unfree, anti-liberty godforsaken piece of shit dust corn that it is.

>>9965

I am now in the process to start a business operation. It will be me, BO and the Colombian (Southern Brazillian). We will be trading agricultural products from south america to yurop. Import Export business best business. I thought of having the big shipments being made only in international waters. Then smaller boats come to unload the merchandise in smaller amounts and drive it to coast. As the boats are smaller, the radars might not see them as well.

To make our enterprise modern we will entirely have the entire supply chain based on crypto currencies.

>>9966

you really want to dethrone Latvia-san, don't you?

>>9982

you nigger tell us about that brother of yours

Hash made me depressive. At some point I stopped smoking but depression never went away.

>>10008

>god how much I hate this world being the unfree, anti-liberty godforsaken piece of shit dust corn that it is

Have some compassion, goy! You're just gonna sit back while a starving mother and her child are living on the streets? Whadda ya mean the government created this problem?

>>10050

>starving mother and her child

if her husband died in a war it is the governments fault

if he died or got incarcerated dealing drugs it is the governments fault as well

if he left his wife and child because he got bored or found a younger one, he is a subhuman trashbag

if he never cared for his wife and child to begin with, the woman is responsible for choosing an unfit father for her family

such tragedies do not happen out of nowhere but you cannot make everyone else pay for collective mismanagement of ressources and stupid investment decissions. If you remove the ability for people to make bad decissions in life and get punished for it, you create a moral hazard incident just like with bankers after 2008 crisis.

Capitalist alienation

Maybe because of routine itself. Things are not actually going that bad for me, it's just that they move incredibly slowly and that I probably wouldn't even care too much if they wouldn't move at all.

>>10100

You should become rapper if sex is your goal and you are fat

>>293

I have no one to blame but myself. At least I’m aware of that. Most people here attribute their pains because society doesn’t accept their 2deep4u ways.

>>909

>plays mashup of "race war" by carnivore and the deliverance banjo solo

>>11026

Welcome, friend. You're gonna make it.

>>11030

be glad it's not you.

>>11034

>Friendship ended with Adolf

>Now Eliot is my best friend.

>>11033

Shouldn't you be coming up with new gender pronouns, instead of bothering a clearly depressed young man?

>>11034

G'night, I s'pose.

>>11036

xDDDDDD

>>11037

Back to reddit, faggot.

>>11039

>reddit

Nahh dude. Passive-agressive SJWism is your thing, not mine.

>>11048

Fuck it, i'm going back to sleep and i'll check for questions in a couple of hours.

>>11049

When you will go back to reddit?

>>10067

Also laziness. It's so much easier to just embrace depression than actually do something to better it. It's like, sometimes I'm not depressed, but then I feel I'm missing out on that comfy feeling of wicked darkness, you know? Normality, when I sometimes experience it, is plain, not particularly good, just plain. If you stare into the abyss it's fucking boring to stare somewhere else afterwards.

Just stay negative and enjoy the mix of anger and euphoria when you actually feel good, then you can curse like a madman but get some work done.

>>11026

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I0czvJ_jikg

thank you for your story anon. I hope you find another.

She looks very cute and you have great taste

Actually I have a similar story about my 4th grade crush but when I saw she was hanging out with other boys often and that I am not of interest I just accepted that I was a weirdo and not good enough for her. I think what you felt was much more painful.

Not everyone can have a happy end …

>>11051

That actually reminded me of my math teacher in high school.

He was a weird hungarian guy and he was like the most famous teacher because of his catchphrases and jokes he made. My class was notoriously bad and he often got frustrated about us:

>class, I feel like you people are like sitting in swamp. Is dirty and stinky there but is warm and nobody wants to move because comfortable and warm. get the fuck out of there

What made me a doomer is that I can't even choose death. I had a bad acid trip in college. I've never died before, obviously, but that trip was so close to what I think death might be like, and upon doing more research I figured it might be at least an acceptable simulacrum. But you know how most people face things in order to get over them? Not me, the experience was so traumatic that I'm full "I don't want to die," mode and constantly think I'm going to have a heart attack or stroke. Dying is too scary, and life is too awful.

>>11034

Mine went awry and I starting liking Pol Pot more than Hitler. Whoops.

Cute girl in that pic. Fit for breeding

>>10145

Ok but nazbol rap would be weird and I forgot how to flow

>>9848

Well they have a male shortage and a burgeoning feminist movement. Women are swine when left to their own devices

I noticed I never really did I write up in this thread for as to why I'm a doomer it would be too long and a waste of time. This year I will enter my late 30s. I don't even know where to begin.

>>11074

>tell Dad I need guns to protect myself from the police

>lol no you don't the police are here to protect us

>What about that guy in Mesa (I live close to Mesa)

>Well ackshually that guy is just guys like you who are lunatics so we need to disarm all the lunatics like you

>But that guy was a cop. Are we going to disarm cops?

>No, of course not, we need cops to disarm people like you

>>534

>>559

He's literally saying that the whole point isn't the past but what we choose to do in the present. We are responsible for our own lives. That's all. That's the whole point of Heidegger and existentialism, responsibility for one self and not giving up that responsibility because that creates and enables domination.

>>11077

You should probably not say to your dad that you need guns to protect you from police just saying. Citizen = cop.

>>11079

Too late for that, I was just hoping that he had some fucking sense of self-awareness, but it's clear NPCs are totally okay with rogue cops as long as they're shooting Trump voters.

>>11030

>that's the picture of the girl you're crazy about

anon, you dodged a bullet with her. I mean, have you even looked closely at this thing? She has the face of a fucking dyke, and the body of a soon-to-be fat pig. And does she already have cankles???

OMG, she is so ugly. Why tf is her chin so masculine? And the upper half of her face is quite repugnant. It looks like her genes just gave up after making her nose. Yikes anon, you have terrible taste. Consider THAT. And the size of those nostrils!? Yeah, your subconscious saved you tbh. And i'm dead serious here. Our subconscious makes our decisions for us 99% of the time, and it seems to me as if you've had a pretty strong subconscious your whole life (hence your early realization of life's bullshit). Hence, your anxiety was your subconscious telling your body to keep you away from that ugly ugly woman. Anon, trust yourself. I think you have a better idea of things than you are aware of. Now stop wasting your time over an oink goblin. Start reading and lifting. That's all that reasonably matters in the life.

>>11066

>cute girl in that pic.

>doesn't link to the post in question

>>11048

She has the face of a fucking goblin. Look at those nigger lips And when she smiles >>11034 - BARF! is she a quadroon? Fat nostrils, anal prolapsed lips, man chin, cankles and more. wtf is wrong with some of you people???

>>11039

Dude Fascist subs get banned on reddt

>>11083

I don't give a fuck. All women look like that including your mother

>>1486

>I hope they all suffocate in their own feces when they are stuck in retirement homes

karma is perfect

they will be "cared" for by those same wonderful immigrants they allowed in

>>11026

just remember every time you think of her that a woman can never love you they way you love them, they are incapable.

This overly romantic obsession you have will never be reciprocated by a woman, and if you tell her the truth about how you feel she will be immediately creeped out and disgusted.

So STOP being a lovesick romantic comedy character, that is a part you learned from tv and films, a persona you wear.

Stop caring so much about women and you might actually get one worth having.

>>11103

Or just be a rapist. I heard some women orgasm during rape is this true?

>>401

>We all play a part in it and we're not good people.

>we're not good people

Speak for yourself.

People may be naive and led astray by jew propaganda hidden in mainstream information that one SHOULD be able to trust, but that does not mean they are not good people.

Most people can go either way depending on upbringing/ peer pressure etc, which means if they are not good people, they have been led astray by those leading society from behind the scenes.

They are NPCs with the potential to be good if led well, currently they are led by psychopaths who exploit their worst tendencies.

Then there are those like us who have found sites like this who are far less likely to be easily swayed by mainstream propaganda or peer pressure, and push back against the evil all around us.

Are you saying that fighting evil is not good?

Many anons are obsessed to the point of damaging their own lives with finding a better way to live, not only for themselves but for others that they have never met as well.

So we may be outnumbered by people who are not "good people", but saying we are not good people because the world is shit is not right.

The world is shit because the minority of good people have been hypnotized and mindfucked into following bad people's examples.

God I can't wait for the government to kill me.

>>11099

Life always has this way of serving just desserts to everyone

I wonder what mine will be …

>a woman can never love you they way you love them, they are incapable.

the more time passes the more I believe this to be true

what a cruel world we live in.

>>11119

>I did not choose to fall in love with her

nobody can choose what they desire. This is the greatest nigger of existence. Buddha teaches us to abstain from desire if you seek happiness and peace of mind. But unfortunately, you cannot dictate your brain what it desires and what not.

>>293

copying from another thread I wrote it down there

>Was chubby funny kid whole live long

>No one picked on me because I was funny and had the right friend circle

>fast forward I finish middle school and go to europes high school equivalent

>in the summer before high school I lost all my weight (was 16 becoming 17 that summer)

>plenty of girls suddenly hitting on me

>couldnt deal with it I was never loved my whole live

>fast forward join new school

>tfw look really good

>I started lifting

>and I have the good humor that saved me my whole live

>11th class year

>I became the chad in my school year

>Tfw I was happy as fuck my world changed 360°

>every girl wanted to hang out with me

>chilled with most of them

>but there was one girl

>the stacy of our school

>curly brown hairs, green-greyish eyes, insane pretty face and body of a goddess

>also very smart and from a rich background

>I never attented to hit up on her because even tho I could get every girl in my year I felt inferior in every regard to her

>she was insanely lovely not behaving like a thot literally a dream women, mature and respectful, the perfect one

>always kept smiling at me

>she could take my chad cloak away with a simple smile I always pretended that I didnt see it and turned away

>It went that far that I basically ignored her I literally couldnt see her

>I told myself she is that far out of my league that I basically ghosted her

>My brain just didnt notice her at all it was like she wasnt there (I filtered her out)

>kept on being chad

>12th class year near end

>I had plenty of girls asking me to be their gf

>Im a beta in the chad cloak I always say i dont want a gf (even tho I do but im insecure)

>girls think im some chad because I just refuse to fuck the hottest girls they know

>the more I refused the more wanted my dick (what a weird phenomen)

>I became even more chad

>my class year organistates a big school party to collect money for our graduation

>fast forward I attend

>join a club for the first time

>never drank alcohol

>the other big chad of my year (lifting beast) comes with me

>as we join the club every fucking girl looks to us and smiles

>my selfesteem goes +10

>the goddess is also here

>every chad in my year tried to hit on her but she refueses to dance with them or do any other stuff just sitting with another chick at the side looking at people dancing

>I get a little bit drank

>start dancing

>tfw I dance good as fuck

>a chick comes to me telling me that Im the best dancer in the club

>I say thanks and just turn around

>tfw chad as fuck but I was just drank and didnt know wtf I just did

>all girls coming to dance with me

>I keep staying and getting more drunk

>club slowly becoming more empty

>the goddess is still there

>I overheard them waiting for their parents to pick them up

>whatever I dance with the other chad

>the goddess smiles at me

>tfw that smile (I want to kms as I type this)

>she comes closer to me dancing

>I keep dancing

>the gf of the goddess pushes her a little bit to me

>tfw go FULL BETA

>tell the other chad that im not feeling well and want to leave

>the other chad was cool as fuck and said yeah lets leave its boring anyway now

>we go home

>I get mad as fuck about me bcs I knew that SOMEHOW SOMEHOW she found me interesting

TIMESKIP

>5-6 months later

>2 months before final exam and graduation

>my background: im from an alcoholic abusive father and a really poor family

>my parents split up

>cant handle it

>get into drugs

>skip school

>fuck up my whole education because of this

>i missed 2 months in school

>decide a day randomly to go there again

>I join the long floor people waiting for the teacher to open the class room door

>everyone freaking out asking me what happened they tell me that I CHANGED

>people start to leave me

>i wait in the floor with only 2 guys left that actually cared

Now comes the biggest memory of my life what comes now still drives me insane part 2 incoming

>>11215

>Im sad as fuck bcs not only did I lose my parents I also lost my whole social standing

>feeling like satan when he fell from heaven to hell

>just look at the floor

>SUDDENLY

>feel a huge warmth

>goddess walks the floor

>she pasts me

>and in that exact moment

>she smiled at me

>looked deep inside me eyes

>ive never felt a deeper connection

>it felt like the world stood still

>it felt like the world waited for me to make a move out of a missery

>like that was the last light in my dark world

>and she passed my smiling

>ive felt too weak to do anything

>after that I got kicked out of school bcs of too bad grades and skipping days

>got really bad education

>got into a school training me as a forwarding agent (only job I could get)

>work as a wagesalve in the worst earning branche in middle europe

>hate my job

>see all my peers that were worse than my in school and everything else succeed, finishing their studies

>I'm now jobless since 5 months 24 year old doomer

>I still dream about her

>I dream about that exact situation where she passed me in the long hallway

>want to forget her but atleast once in a week her face will randomly pop up in my head

>thinking to get into alcohol to drink my sorrow away (I just want to escape)

>do nightwalks almost daily in the hope some thug kills me or a car hits me

>tfw she is getting education in one of the best private universities of europe (MINT)

>there is no way that I could somehow still get the chance I had

>gained 30kg overweight over the last years stopped lifting got into fast food and other bad shit

>im DOOMED

>>11215

I swear, this was the 2nd most hurtful story I read here. A canadian shared a story of a girl that tried to reach out to him and he in his autism played it off as nothing and a few weeks later she was dead in an alleyway

Thank you for sharing.

>Tfw I was happy as fuck my world changed 360°

this is what actually disgusts me about society so much. It is not about who you are. it is about image and marketing only. You can be a filthy child rapist like Michael Jackson as long as you project the image of the philantropic and benevolent recording artist who is just a reincarnation of peter pan and totally undangerous.

>girls think im some chad because I just refuse to fuck the hottest girls they know

once again, marketing only. Disgusting. But I think your goddess saw through your foul play from the very beginning. And I also think she saw something in you that other guys lacked. I really wished you 2 could have gotten together and how it would have ended. Maybe she wanted you exactly because she was fed up with her rich family and their fakeness.

>the goddess is still there

she waited for you. I wish you had a better wingman or that her friend were more tactful in her plan to get you 2 together.

>I also lost my whole social standing

Wie gewonnen so zeronnen

It only takes one bad incident and you lose everything and nobody gives a flying shit about you. Then you notice that all your "friends" were fake the entire time and nobody was interested in you at all.

>there is no way that I could somehow still get the chance I had

maybe not. But I think you should contact her and ask how she is doing. If she is fine. If she is happy. Tell her you thought about her and the good old times.

If she liked you, she will be happy you remembered her.

>overweight

You already got slim once and you can do it again. Go for it Tiger. Make us proud

and don't worry about career. Most people reinvent themselves 2 or 3 times in life. Nobody does end up doing what he starts doing. Maybe you find your true calling in a few years and even success.

I really want this story to turn into a happy end

>>11265

than* you are.

>>11215

I would read it but sorry it's so terribly formatted, I will take a look on it in the morning with cup of coffee.

>>11258

Thank you for responding my mate, pretty lonely in the last weeks so atleast I got a little bit social interaction here.

>Tfw I was happy as fuck my world changed 360°

Aslong you work you are good, if you just show a little beat of weakness you will fall. Survival of the fittest.

==I agree with all your points== expect

>maybe not. But I think you should contact her and ask how she is doing. If she is fine. If she is happy. Tell her you thought about her and the good old times.

If she liked you, she will be happy you remembered her.

The thing is like I wrote I had no fucking contact with her at all. Our Highschool here in Germany is 3 years long. The first year I just saw her in the other class. The 2nd and 3rd year I had some classes with her but I knew she was that much out of my league I just left her alone I seriously ghosted her. I didn't even acknowledge her presence. I maybe talked twice to her in 3 years, and as weird as it sounds, I treated her like an outcast. I chatted with all girls in my school year, every single one had my number expect her, I had everyone on facebook (I know normie shit) expect her. I was really cool with her best schoolfriend, we joked around and had many fun moments. It baffles me to this day that I never went in contact with her. If I think about it now I think even tho she was the superstacy she was really shy. She is from a insanely rich family (I found about this out after dropping out) and is very educated. It's the only chick I serously respect because of the way she speaks and presents herself, and is very well mannered. The thing is that after I dropped out people asked about me and no one knew about me anymore. I got forgotten, and you know whats really fucking crazy? What I'm going to tell you know makes me sometimes think everything is planned. Every schoolpicture we took with the classes it was either me taking the picture or I was just straigh out missing. As if the universe knew that I'm going to drop out. The school website has a collection of every schoolyear with pictures and I miss in every one of them. Every single guy that went to my school is on it expect me. My old school creates a graduation magazine and every single one (even those who also dropped out and didn'

t make it) were in it EXPECT me. Like WTF. A picture from everyone with a little short text about their personality and funny stuff they did in school. And I'm not in it, even tho I was and I know this sounds arrogant as fuck the moon the people orbited around. I deleted all my social media back then and changed my number. I haven't seen a single person from them, the school I went to was really reputable and almost everyone is studying in some university across europe.

Imagine I contact her out of nowhere, after I went missing with basically no connection to her expect those moments. I sometimes think that maybe I'm just badshit insane and I just make it out this way. What if I just interpreted her smile wrong. What if that day she wanted to dance with me I was just so drank that I imagined it. Idk. You also have to think about my stand in life, she has a promising future while I'm just some super loser. I would never let my daughter date a bum like me. I just know that if I contact her and it goes wrong I will be an even bigger laughing stock, and maybe I lost my family, my friends, my job, my life, but I won't lose my pride.

>overweight

I already lost 20kg since 15.Sep. and I', going to lose the last 30kg also. It's no problem but I know that even when I look good again it won't feel the whole in my heart. And I never was a real Chad, I could fuck plenty of girls and maybe can do it again but it's not my way. I rather have 1 person I love and care about than 100 hoes I can fuck.

Make us proud

>and don't worry about career. Most people reinvent themselves 2 or 3 times in life. Nobody does end up doing what he starts doing. Maybe you find your true calling in a few years and even success.

Man you seem like a really cool guy I wish the best to you I hope you find love and luck in your life, thanks for your kind words, keep the hustling going my fellow doomer.

>>11270

I know it's terrible formatted I copied it from another thread and it turned out this way. Sorry my friend.

>>11215

>I told myself she is that far out of my league that I basically ghosted her

Right into the fucking feels. This hit me so hard.

>the more I refused the more wanted my dick (what a weird phenomen)

It's like that mysterious fruit you want but you can't have. Typical Eve syndrome. Girls have huge fantasies about men. A lot girls were at the same time, as your story takes place, interested in me and I kept backing off but for the reason of the low self-esteem, or maybe just because I simply wasn't interested in dating girls, probably I was just closet fag. Like, I had no clue what the fuck was so attractive in me for them and I thought they will be happier with illusions than with me ruining their lives. Not chad at all though, all I had was this way of life "me against whole world", which was edgy and cringy at the same time. I couldn't give any shits, always trouble with authorities, nobody to hold my back. The worst feel I had about it was not about girls but about my friends who couldn't get a gf and I couldn't help them because I was just myself and I wanted to give them whatever was in me so I don't have to bother with girls and they could be happy.

>that part about alcoholic abusive father, parents splitting up, drugs use, skipping school

I went through exactly the same shit with exception that I didn't missed out any education. I was overeducated for that school even though that school presented itself as one of the best in the country or some shit. Don't overrate the education. At that point the only thing why you need school is diploma or whatever you get, just papers for employer so you can be good wagie.

>>11216

>tfw she was really into you even though everyone else spit on you

Fucking into the feels again.

Not going to lie, this was pretty heavy thing to read.

Ok gonna take this trip down memory lane

>born 1982

>spend most of my early childhood from school to school, never really making friends. I

>go to kindergarten

>le weird autismo

>teacher says I don't speak much but know my alphabet by heart and read at an 8th grade level. Hmmmm

>make a friend named Jason and befriend his friend Dave. We all used to be a jerk to this girl named Mandy. Dunno what happened to her or Dave. Jason works in silicon valley now.

>move to Springfield elementary for sbh (severe behaviour handicap). Meet this kid named Joe (still know him to this day)

>at first he's a bully

>then becomes my friend

>3 years later, move back to my first school area, Boardman

>1992. Hang out with a bunch of nerdy kids who eventually snub me for not getting into RPG games and whatnot

>1996. High school. Fucking hell. Lose all my middle school nerd buds and have to start over

>virgin

>get out of pop music and into metal and punk.

>outcast

>Everyone thinks I'm gonna shoot the school up

>10th grade, English class. Honors.

>still a virgin. Loads of hot babes in my case

>Fucking torture.

>girl named Sarah shows lot tiny bit of interest.

>omg a girl is talking to me

>she must like me

>draw pics of all the got girls in class

> "Wow, anon, you're a really good artist"

>pass them out, signed with my name (one girl gets the porno treatment on a copy and it's so good I jerked off to it)

>develop crush on Sarah

>follow her from class, but from a distance (scared of rejection)

>get call into principals office

> "Anon you have been stalking a girl and she's accusing you of sexual harassment"

>me: what's stalking? Corn stalking? What's harassment? (Autism, fullblown)

>anon, don't get smart with me

>me: I know I'm very smart

>he grumbles and walks away

(Cont. On my computer)

(cont.)

> >>11295

>eventually charges get dropped, yadda yadda

>graduate without incident. no shootings

>2001

>message board geek

>get banned repeatedly from many metal and punk boards for my audacious political views (libertarian neocon at the time, forgot to mentioned I was redpilled at 12 the year Kurt Cobain died. bad timing)

>IRL, shame shit

>finally lose my virginity to a fat ugly bitch (in HS I dated a cutie but we never fucked and then she left me)

>this bitch is too much drama

>dump her

>really like HC punk at the time

>school is full of Slipknot faggots, Mansonites and ICP fans

>hardly any friends

>meet this girl Katie

>tell her about my past

>curiously enough I tell her about my bully turned friend Joe

>I see him come into the vocational school one day

>what a surprise

>Katie and Joe are dating

>ok, cool, that's fine

>still awkward, sperg

>play in bands that go nowhere (I learned guitar at 15)

>cut a demo with a couple friends I started hanging around (Mike and Joe S., not Joe, Katie's bf)

>we use a drum machine because drummers are a bitch to find

>break up after 3 demos

>graduate again

>get various shit jobs

>land a job at a factory

>get a new gf

>she turns out to be a whore and a mudshark later on and we break up after 3 or 4 years

>start getting real politically radically, become WN

>still a Libertarian tho

>get fired after 10 years (with a stint in North Lima in another factory for 2 years) after punching the nigger that fucked around with my ex-girl on me, also brutally slammed her in the spine because she was acting irritated and being a sperg, that's unnatural to me and she threatens to leave me and cuck me with some asshole she knows at bar.

>fuck this bitch

>go to another job

>shitting where I eat again

>get another girl

>very libshit

>not this crap again

>fucks around on me, I almost choke her out because it was a nigger again (she came from Shitcago, what did I expect) her mom hates me and her dad does too (but this was even before she did that and I retaliated on her). she was also a gold digger

>leave that job after maybe, 3 years, 4 years, start to turn towards Socialism and Nazbol in 2013, 14 maybe

>did I mention at the last job is where I met my best bud (he initially wanted to befriend me so he could fuck me over and date my now ex)

>he had a life of incest, pedo shit (he was raped when he was 5), starvation, brutal beatings, etc.

>my life isn't even that bad

>date an old ex who never turned on me.

>but then she accuses me of rape after some real hot sex

>proven to be liar, I'm let off the hook

>neveragain

>get new job

>its shit, less drama but pays crap

>no more shitting where I eat, though there is a cute girl. wheelchair bound but cute af, like waifu cute (too bad she thinks I'm a creepy asshole, the more things change, I guess)

>get caught in a row with a housemate who's a black bitch and serve jail time because the lippy bitch couldn't help but to bring up my past

>as of today, still on probation, abiding by the law, but got a new gig teaching Katie & Joe's 13 year old son guitar lessons

I guess things turned out ok

>for now

I forgot to mention I was in two other bands, a goregrind/noisecore band and a raw black metal band.

we live in the world, but we are not of the world, and the world has no incentives for us

alcohol is intellectual self-mortification

>>11310

I actually enjoy emptying my bowels in public

>but it's not my way. I rather have 1 person I love and care about than 100 hoes I can fuck.

I love you man, you could have defiled all those girls but out of nobility and in accord to your moral codex you chose not to. I have my greatest respects for you anon

>Man you seem like a really cool guy I wish the best to you I hope you find love and luck in your life, thanks for your kind words

this goes right back to you. thank you

You know the bad thing about your story is that it actually might have become a modern Romeo and Juliet. Where romeo rejects all the thots for his one and only princess. And the princess is happy to lover her romeo no matter what ghetto he might have been born to. And together they motivate each other to be successful in society even without their parents blessing. And they build a house together and have 8 children and live happily.

>>11281

>always trouble with authorities

another trait we share

I never got along with a single boss in my entire life. I just can't into this authority bullshit. Yesterday my sister basically tells me this:

>your entire generation is fucked

>you people cannot respect authority and assemble into society

>your sister is the same like you

and she is right. Me and my little sister are same. We hate work, we cannot get along with bosses and we love freedom. Am I now to blame for beeing a freedom-loving person? Should I conform to society, suck their ass and become an obedient slave just to appease a society that does not give a shit about me anyways? Hell no….

Normalfags are cattle indeed. They cannot think out of the box. This is why every single one of them never amounts to nothing in life. For people like us it is a 50/50. You either die in the gutter and nobody comes to your funeral or you make it really big. But at least you are not a pig on a farm waiting for your butcher Slim Jim, this one is for you homeboy.

what even

>>11103

If women can't love, are they even human?