>>13096
I really enjoy (well it's not the right word because it more fucks me up) these thought experiments.
>I got 16 straight heads before I threw the coin away and went for an extremely anxious nightwalk.
Isn't this some Inception type of shit? What is the result you would expect? Some degree of randomness or what it should prove? Anyway random numbers are very interesting subject by itself because when you get enough results, which you suspect would be results of something random, you start to see some patterns. In IT random numbers are subject by itself and it's very hard discipline. We still don't have very good random number generators, we only have what you would call "good enough for our purposes" ones.
>a sign from god or truly just pure chance
When you add some higher entity to this, you are basically adding another layer of insanity. My humble opinion is, like how I would imagine this situation, is that if there is God, it would prove my suspicion that he is in fact mischievous dude, who gave you 16 same results just to fuck with you because it's fun. But this just shows like how deep this rabbit hole is and how far you can go into the void until you realize you have no clue about what the fuck is this existence and reality about. The strongest clue you can have to this topic is pure belief, which is not very strong proof by our current modern standards.
>Once you retreat to these egocentric recesses you can not logically return to any semblance of normal thought. Certainty yields to a chaotic and incessant doubt.
In last days I'm more and more thinking about how to deal with this in your own personal human life. Like even as not religious person, what if I did what I shouldn't do and I become (as mafioso would say) "too smart in this business". I mean, isn't this what would christians call blasphemy? It's certainly taking away ground under your feet, it's interesting but it takes too big toll. Shouldn't I finally grow up, throw away pride and admit to myself I'm nothing more than a monkey who tried to be his own god? I don't mean just christianity but something higher in general, like, what if admitting to yourself that this is what you got, you are part of universe, don't worry about it much and deal with it; is more healthy attitude towards life? I'm definitely missing humility in my life and maybe I should learn it finally, even if as any other person, I'm also an explorer and I want to know the unknown.