>>11675
I'm spiritual person but I wish nothing of it would be real. It doesn't matter if you believe in God, heaven and hell, if you believe in higher dimensions, reincarnation or whatever. Imagine this as set of layers of forced existence. Maybe it's fault of "modern" society which sees universe as corporation, where you can progress or go down in ranks but ultimately you are here forever. All these things promise you after-existence (I don't like the word afterlife). Since I see myself like, what would scientist call, an ugly result of beautiful mathematical equation, I'm more interested in vaporizing myself completely from these hierarchies of existences. I don't want to care about any of this, not about heaven and hell, no spiritual world, no higher dimensions, no reincarnation. If death isn't the endgame then I will be really pissed.
Now I understand religion might keep you going and by all means, believe in whatever you want to believe, I don't care but it's not giving me personally any answers on why the fuck I have to be here because christian sayings about God are far from reality. "He" has no plans with you and likes to give you things to life you never asked for, just for shit n giggles. Also there is pretty good chance there is no "you" beyond this human body and you just happened to be, without purpose. And maybe christianity brings nothing but struggle to ones life so you might think if daypeople don't need exactly this to validate their purpose. Life seems worse than hell if you ask me, because at least in hell you know what the fuck went wrong and you'll be there suffering for eternity, you know what you should do and how long it's going to take. No christian bothered explaining to you why the fuck you are here with exception of being part of this God's zoo, just because that nigger felt lonely one day so he created all these creatures with genetic code not suitable for life in universe (f.e. cancer) and then he expects from people after being thrown into this world to worship their owner. Christianity is disgusting and by saying this you are automatically guilty of trying to be better than God, being better than your owner, and you shouldn't do that. Anybody who thinks is a sinner. But at least Christianity has Satan which is this based guy trying to fuck shit up, which makes more sense to me than anything.
tl;dr I have no answers on big questions like any other existence on this planet.