Hey /cuteboys/, fascist here. I have a bit of a problem and I need your advice. I also posted something similar to this in /trap/ but I'm posting it here as well since that will give me more answers. Anyways…
>I've been straight my whole life, have only jerked it to women and the thought of fucking a dude has always disgusted me
>Have had many relationships with women in the past, even had a gf for a while
>Gf obsesses over me even after we breakup
>Don't talk to her for a while, try to get back in touch, she turns into a bitch, but that's unimportant
>Have also had my dick sucked, but I didn't even get hard during the whole thing and mostly did that for the lols
>Start seeing the "fascist femboy" meme pop up in all my feeds
>Think it's kind of funny
>Start actually having a crush on the femboys
>It's only ironic at this point
>I begin to like femboys more and more and the thought of dating one intrigues me
>See a lot of cute traps/femboys on 4chan and crush on those as well
>Start thinking that "hey, if a femboy looks like a girl I wouldn't mind going out"
Note: Even after this I haven't ever been aroused by looking at femboy with their dicks out. I mostly like the pics of them wearing skirts and looking cute
>Begin realizing that all women on social media are attention-seeking and can barely think for themselves (This was at the beginning of the riots)
>Upon reflection I realize that with most modern women I don't exactly like being around them (My ex was a good example of this)
>Nearly all of them lack the feminine qualities that I'm looking for so I don't see a point
Femboys/traps on the other hand
>Tend to be more feminine
>Don't seem as annoying or affected by groupthink
>Are often pretty cute
So yeah, that's my story. I'm still a hardcore fascist except that I now think that femboys arent gay and a preferable option. There's several other things I should note before I get to my questions.
>I don't really care about the dick. I find vaginas equally gross to look at so I don't really care
>Still don't think guys are hot, Im not gay. This is purely motivated by the fact I think femboys would be a better fit for me since they're like women but not as bad
>I'm not really interested in dating someone off the internet
>I know that femboys come in a wide spectrum so I'll be more specific: I want one that looks and dresses like a woman cause otherwise it's gay
Now, my questions
1. Is it really gay if I'm not in it for the dick but rather cause femboys tend to be better suited to my needs?
2. Is it true that femboys/traps tend to be more traditional/fascist or is that just a stupid meme?
3. How easy is it to find them irl or does that depend where you are?
4. Another concern is that hatred that "chasers" tend to get from the /lgbt/ community. In my mind I'm not technically a chaser since I'm not motivated by a fetish but because I think femboys are more likely to have the qualities I'm looking for but I could be wrong.
5. How are most femboys personality-wise?
6. Am I completely insane for thinking this way?
Anyways, replies are appreciated. Cheers.