Please disregard these absolute shit replies. Burying gender dysforia is _not_ a good idea. Even if you are not serious about going into any sort of transformation you should at least talk about it, about the shame and about the self-loathing.
I don't normally post here but replies like above are absolutely infuriating. Shit like this
>and it's more than likely you'll end up a freak if you attempt to do this shit.
helps nobody. It leads to only one thing, and that is suicide. If you want everyone with dysphoria to kill themselves, keep it up, because you are doing a great job.
OP: Do what _you_ want and what _you_ need. Look behind your shame and find out what you must do in order to be at least slightly more happy than you are now. 8ch is probably not the place to look for well-informed advice. If that's even something you are looking for.