I have been going to Church since august 2019, and I have not really been able to integrate into community. It is supposed to be important but I can't seem to integrate with people. I have autism, and I have never been able to relate to people in general. I don't hate people, but I don't understand them. Why are people so blinded by the attractions of the world? Why are people often disagreeing with the Faith? Why are people so foolish? Why are people so tempted by lust? Why are people so into cultural stuff? I am a "part of the community", yet I don't know anything about those around me. If I could, I would become a Hermit living in the woods for the rest of my life.
>You like soccer, anon?
>what do you think of politics, anon?
>What do you think of coronavirus, anon?
I DON"T CARE. Which is why I will NEVER marry. I am not interested in sleeping in the same bed with someone for 40+ years. I am not interested in the world. I often think of Calvin Coolidge at a dinner party, when the Social butterfly bet she could make him speak at least 3 words, he replied "you lose". If someone pulled a gun on me I would laugh and walk away. I am THAT tired of people. Is there a place for people who wish to live in isolation? Somewhere where I can develop my faith….AWAY from humanity?